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Someday
Nina

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this though my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the best guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long
Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
Someday someday
Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

Eastwood hopping

december 7,2006

Shameful,nah it doesn't really matter. First time ko pumunta sa Eastwood. It was just yesterday. If not for Ma'am Joy's interview I wouldn't be going there. Hindi naman pla siya ganun kalayuan eh. Now I know me bago na akong spot na mapupuntahan some of these days. The place is absolutely wow. City siya talaga,it's like a separate city pa from Quezon City. I love the restaurants dami you have lots of choices. And one reason that I would love to go back there is because of " A Different Bookstore " just beside Starbucks where we did our interview. Kasi dun meron silang " For One More Day" ni Mitch Albom. It's his newest book,#1 sa New York Times Bestseller. But to my dismay, wlang paperback. Pagkaliit liit eh 950 hardbound kasi. It would take another year pa daw to have a paperback. Wla pa kc to sa Powerbooks eh. Mas ok sana kung sa Powerbooks ako bibili dahil me card ako dun. Sana they will have it na soon. I'll ask again.

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Know what,naubos ang pera ko pamasahe,amabag,pagkain lahat. Grabe ang dasmi kong gastos ngayon. Ayoko pa sana umuwi eh pero xmpre di ko naman katulad sila Gwen na magala kya don't even think about it. Next time na lang yung ako lang. Ayain ko nga minsan sila Anna. Ganda nun place pag gabi. Tabi tabi mga resto, bars, coffee shops,stores. Wow talaga! 1000 mo pwede dun the whole day pagkain and some stuff basta wais ka din ah. At di ba sa giyera di ka sumusugod ng wla kang armas,ang armas mo eh carry with u ur atm or credit card always

basta pupunta ka dun. Or else hindi ka mkakasurvive unless me kakilala ka dun.

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I really love the place and I would really love to go back again and again. Di ko pa naeexplore eh. Nawala yung antok ko. The white choco iced coffee was nice but the multigrain chuva ekk ekk wasn't,ang tigas eh sana nag-donut na lang ako.

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Eastwood I will come back!

I hate this day and I hate HIM too!

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Today is November 26, 2006, a Sunday. Kagabi, sabi nia na tuloy pa rin na ako ang sasama sa younger sister nia sa pag-exam nia sa UST. Then pagkagising ko kanina ng 7am,diretso na ako sa banyo. Walang kain kain dahil baka malate pa ko. Habang asa banyo ako,nagtxt siya asking kung tuloy daw ako. Sabi ko wait lang,pwedeng sa chapel na lang because dapat sa Ministop P Noval pa. sabi ko medjo malalate lang ako. Then he suddenly blurted out to me na wag na akong pumunta! Whattttttt?!!!! I made so much effort to wake up that early because he asked me to and that's all he's gonna say to me! I was about to change clothes na by that time and when he said that I just sat on my bed and cried. I cried because I was about to go and I sacrifice my sleep just to please his ass! I immediately called Jingkie and told her what happened. She couldn't even say a word because it's so early in the morning. Ok lang sana kung hapon na nangyari eh pero it's that early in the morning! Damn it, damn him! I also told it to Kidong who just happened to sent me a message to smile when I wake up,how can I even smile,when he made my day a disaster and he will never say sorry. I told him what happened and that I was crying. He said, " I thought you already had enough of him,then why are you crying?" " You still love the guy, go for him." He's waiting for you." That I should just think that he was just joking. That he was just making tampo because he expected me there and then I said I'll be late for a while.

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What's the worst thing he did was make fun of me. He said that I need not come at all. Then he said again that I come. Then he said again, don't come at all. What is he playing at? Does he think I'm stupid that whatever he says I'll follow! When he asked me to come, I made up my mind not to go and just go to mass because he just made a mistake of doing that. He just proved to me that he is never serious and that he makes fun of the people who always do him a favor,among others he made fun of me! I can never forget what he did today. I can never forgive someone who never asks for forgiveness,who never says sorry and who never accepts his mistakes. I have just known that he's a real dumb ass and stupid! Kidong said that he is more important than going to mass and that I should go there and talk to him. I did not because it was the wrong thing to do and I have my pride and my pride was in the right track.

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I know he will never say sorry because it's just not him when he says sorry. Therefore,he will never realize his mistake has cost me a lot. Neither would he care If I cried over this thing. I strongly told him throught text in the most sarcastic way that he just made my day a fiasco!Thanks for doing so!

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Really,thanks for making my day!

The Younger Sister Act

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What day is it today? Today is November 25, 2006 Saturday. Jollibee Moraita. New Nursing Bldg.

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Those that are above are some of the memorable parts in my day today. It was, I think the 2nd time around that I have seen his sister. I think I saw her before. Me and Anna waited for them inside Jollibee. However, it took them quite some time to get there later than I have expected. Then something happened in the middle of this scenario. Kath's aunt saw us and began showering us with detective like questions about the whereabouts of her niece. We answered honestly ofcourse. Then, she takes off to the counter. Then I was standing and suddenly I saw him and he can't seem to find me. I smashed him with my bundle of newspapers to notice me. Then I saw his sister and I said leave her to me ok you can go now if you have class. Then he vanished out of my sight. Then suddenly he came back just to find out that he went the other way,the way to recto.

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So we went back to school to take her to the exam room. We went to LNB 201 then I found out she doesn't have a pencil so I rushed down to buy her one while Anna stayed with her. When I came back, I heard this lady who said that the exam is not in there. So I took a peek at the room and there were students having their class. I asked this woman and she said it's the other building. I knew exactly where it was. So I told them to leave the building right away. When we arrived there, I asked Jacky to go in and bid her goodluck and which she replied a smile. We went to our class until it was finished. We were seating on the benches in freedom park and I told them that I should go fetch her. She texted me that she was already there to where I instructed her to.I thought she was lost becasue I couldn't see her and poof there she was. I took her with me to freedom park while we waited for Keny to txt me. Then when he said that he's already there, we went out. I looked for him everywhere and he's not there. I texted him to ask where he was. There he was and I immediately said I'll go now.

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I asked his sister about Ma'am Marzan, if she's married now which is to my surprised still not married. Then before I took her to meet her brother, I asked her about Keny and ate Bily. She answered me," I think they're still at it. I'm not quite sure ate. " I also asked her if Keny does really have a class tomorow and she said no. The first thing that came to my mind, wow he lied to me. And that one petty thing I found out that he's still with ate bily knocks me off immediately.

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Jacky,she is a very timid girl. I barely understand her before I took herto the exam room because her voice was so "mahina". I thought she was just like me who have soft voice and shy as I still am. But she's a very nivce girl. To be honest,she's prettier than her older sister. She's very mild mannered at magalang. Just the exact opposite of her brother whose so full of himself at times. She can really adjust quickly because this is the first time that we get to talk to each other even though she had seen me before. She talks a lot at makwento siya. Hindi siya nahihiya sakin kc we were talking sa text and we were conversing about her brother, her school stuff and Jan jan,my neighbor and her classmate.

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But most of all, she told me that when she asked Keny about his relationship with ate billy. He just ignored her as if he didn't hear her. So what was that really? I don't know. She told me that Keny wasn't making kwento these days so she doesn't know if he has a girlfriend now.

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I thought he lied to me but I was wrong. He really does have a class tomorrow, Jacky told me.

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She's a nice girl and she has a lot to smile about I hope she pass one of FEU, UST or UP not because she is Keny's sister but because I like her.

Here he goes again blurting out his favorite line. " Andyan kb sa bahay niu?!" Hai naku,it was the same situation na naman like before nun . I was facing the computer doing stuff for our focus interview. Baka sabihin na naman nia,di ko siya ineentertain eh. I went out and I look for him everywhere and I didn't find him. I texted him kung nasan siya because I couldn't see him. Then biglang na lang niya ako tinawag. Nagulat nga ako eh,paglingon ko ayun siya. Nag-usAp kami ng sandali lang. Dami dami kc niya tinatanong. kulit kulit eh.

So un, yan ang nangyari ngayong araw ng mga 5:30PM.

By the way, I saw him for the first time in uniform. Atleast nabawasan ng konti un duda ko kung sa PSBA talga siya nag-aaral. Pero one things for sure, I haven't really seen him at PSBA kahit sa labas man lang kaya duda pa rin ako.

So there is the highlights of my day today. November 24,2006. 5:30 PM. Don Quijote Sampaloc, Manila.

Thirty first kisses for new Potter film

Harry Potter star Daniel Radcliffe has admitted that his first onscreen smooch deserves quite a bit of media publicity.The romantic kiss, which features in the fifth Potter movie, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, reportedly took 30 takes to get right.Initially 17-year-old Radcliffe, who has starred as the teenage wizard in the preceding four films of the J. K. Rowling franchise, appeared rather pleased with himself that he had been forced to cope with a prolonged snogging session with co-star Katie Leung, 19, who plays Harry's love interest Cho Chang in the film."We probably got it on the 30th take. My God, it was fun. We were awkward and nervous at first but once we got it, it was fine," the Sun newspaper reports Radcliffe as saying.He then backtracked on this impression, however, suggesting that 30 attempts to create that first-kiss magic was nothing out of the ordinary."It was reported that we did a huge amount of takes, but actually you do that number on any scene," Radcliffe explained to the Daily Mail."Once you have covered it from all the camera angles you've done about 30 takes." Bottom of Form

Harry Potter's First Kiss Goes Public!

Fans have waited a long time to see Harry Potter's kiss on the big screen. Now, with the fifth film ready and set to hit cinema screens next year, the wait will soon be over. And to give fans a feel of what Harry's first kiss is like, Studio Warner Brothers has released a still from the movie showing the boy wizard locking lips with his first girlfriend.Potter star, Daniel Radcliffe and his co-star Katie Leung, who plays his crush Cho Chang in 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix', reportedly enjoyed the scene so much, that they needed 30 attempts to get it right.However, Radcliffe laughed off the reports, and revealed that though the kissing scene had required 30 takes, there was nothing unusual about the number, for normal scenes require that many takes as well."It was reported that we did a huge amount of takes, but actually you do that number on any scene. Once you have covered it from all the camera angles you've done about 30 takes," the Daily Mail quoted him, as saying. "But because it's the kiss, it was sort of made out that I had requested to do well over 30 takes," he said. And though he admits that the scene was "nerve wracking", he insists that having to kiss someone he didn't like would have been a worse experience. "It would have been more nerve wracking if I was doing it with someone I didn't like," Radcliffe said.And if nothing else about the movie works, the young actor is sure that the publicity the kissing scene has got will make sure that fans flock to theatres once the movie is released. "I guess if there's one thing that people will be coming to see the film for, it will be the kiss," he said. 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' hits theatres the world over in July next year.

these are some photos of the upcoming Harry Potter movie, The Order of Phoenix. Harry's first kiss that's an absolutely big deal. I'm so excited to see this movie. I've read the book but ofcourse,it's a different experience when you see it and when I see Harry get his first kiss ever.Oh my God,this will get really wonderful and I'll get crazy about him more. It'll be out on July 13 next year and I just can't wait to see it,to see Daniel in the flesh again! Love you Daniel!You rock my world always!

Hataw Hanep Hero! November 18 - 19, 2006 World Trade Center

Grabe ang saya saya sa Hero. First time ko umatend ng anime fair ng Hero. Masaya basta me pera ka kasi madami ka pwede bilhin dun, lots of choices. Sana nga madami akong pera nun, ang dami kong gustong bilhin. Basta anime,the best yan cguradong di ako makaktangggi. Well i just splurge out my money lang naman worth 475 wla pa yan ang pamasahe ah. I bought, a shirt, 2 ost cassette tapesgundam wing and fushigi yuugi,a naruto mug,and a dvd movie of tsubasa chronicles. Naiinggit nga ako dun sa friend ni Leann eh, ang dami niang nabiling dvd's 150 un each noh samantalang me,I only bought one.Gusto ko nga bumili ng manga because it was just 200 for two. Eh if it's not a sale,300 -500 each manga un,mahal talaga. kaya lang dun ka na lang sa dvd mas ok,atleast they're talking. Un cardcaptor clow cards wow i wanted to buy that pero i opted for those na mapakikinabngan ko muna kc un di ko xa masyadong magagamit saka na lang and it's mahal 25o lang naman. Saya talaga sobra lalo na if yoou have lots of money. It happens every year naman so it will be a habit to attend every year from now on.

Why are you here?

November 7,2006
5:30PM

Yesterday was something like very unusual to me. It was 5:30PM and I was infront of the computer doing my internet stuff since I just got here again and I haven't done this for quite some time. Then suddenly, my phone rang indicating a new message. I'm really not excited to see who it was. then to my surprise,it was him. There was no name because I erased his number on my phone,I took this from Anna but his number was since then plastered on my mind. He was asking me if I am at home. I asked him why. Then he said,I would like to come. TING! What?It's not that I don't want him to come. Ofcourse I really do want him to come. I always want that. Then I asked again, really why?Yeah I'm at home,that's ok.Then he suddenly blurted out on text that he was already infront of our house. Oh my God,what is he doing here? That was all in my mind. I thought he was on his way pa lang. Well no,I think he was already there outside by the first time he texted me to ask if I am home.

So I went out to see him. I didn't even went out really of the gate. I said," Hey,what brings you here?" I didn't sound sarcastic, I just sounded surprise because I wasn't expecting it. Though, I'm really happy to see him since I never got to talk to him on the trip.He said, he is about to go some place near here so he drop by. He wanted me to treat him for merienda. So I blurted out my favorite line, "Oh I don't have money." "Cge na,kahit coke,ice tea,o kape man lang." then I said,wait. Then it just so happened that my phone went out so by the time I was at my room, I changed my battery then I took some money. Then I went down but still even managed to face the computer. Then he said,"Jovelyn,alis na ako,ang tagal mo eh!" then I said,"cge ba-bye!" I didn't even went out by the time he said he's going. That's my mistake. Dapat di ako nagtagal. Sana di ko na lang inasikaso ung ibang bagay muna.Sana dapat inuna ko siya. Sana dapat binilisan ko na lang. Dapat nga nun sinabi nia aalis na siya dapat tumayo man lang ako at lumabas pero di eh. Saka lang ako lumabas nun medyo malayo na siya. Laging ganun un ginagawa ko un pag nagpaalam na siya kunwari pumapasok na ako pero pag nakita ko na naglalakad na siya palayo tinitignan ko siya hanggang mawala siya sa paningin ko.Pero kahapon,nun sinabi nia aalis na siya di man lang ako tumayo lumabas na lang ako nun umalis na siya at tinitignan ko siya hanggang mawala siya sa paningin ko.

Hindi ko narealize nun mga oras na un that what I did was wrong. I talked to Jinky about it later on the phone. Sabi ko, he went here because he was going some place nearby. But I contradicted her that he just went here for no apparent reason. Pumunta lang siya dito dahil wla lang siya magawa siguro. Sabi ni Jinky imposible yan Jov,na dahil wla lang siya magawa kay siya dumaan,me dahilan yun at di lang daw dahil sa malapi dito un pupuntahan nia.Ganundin sabi ni Jacky,she was even so kilig. Oyyy,dinadalaw! Ang sweet naman,nagtapat na ba?! Kaya cguro nakahiga ka kanina dahil matamlay ka dahil di siya nagtagal. Nega ako eh,I kept on saying that it was nothing. Pero kunsabagay me point nga sila, kc kahit pa malapit dito un pupuntahan nia kung wlang keber di siya pupunta dito. Kahit sino kahit kaibigan mo man,girl or boy kahit malpit dyn un pupuntahan nia,they won't bother to go na unless me ibbigay o me sasabihin o dahil sa di ko malamng dahilan.

Tinxt ko siya nag-sori ako. Di siya ngreply. Miniskol ko di pa rin. Tinxt ko ulit knock knock di pa rin. Tinxt ko ulit sabi ko"tulog ka na ba?o ayaw mo lang akong pansinin?"Ayun nagreply,tinamaan ata sa sinabi ko eh. Then sabi nia," Ok lng,don't worry,tulog na tau. me pupuntahn din me kanina eh,wala un." Atleast nakapag-sori ako sa kung anuman ang mali ko. Ok,sabi mo eh. Kala ko kc nainis ka kc antagal ko. Pasensiya na,slamat na din sa pagdaan kahit sandalilang since di kita napagkakausap nun byahe. Promise pagpunta mo ulit di na ko matagl,lilibre pa kita.pasensiya ulit.gudnyte. Pero di man lang siya nag-gudnyte. Pero ok na din un atleast nakapag-sori ako bago man lang matapos un gabi.

Pero,the question is still on my mind. Why did he come aside from the fact that he was about to go some place nearby.

Hi,I'm back again!I just arrived this Monday and the trip was completely a whacko.Why?Dumating lang naman ako ng 8am kaya nagmamadali ako kc my class is at 9am. Sabi kc ni Ivy usually it arrives at 7am pero it's one hour late. Ke mama naman sabi nia hindi maaga kc un kanya nun 6pm umalis pero 5:30am dumating. Tapos andun nga siya sa bus kasama ko,ni hindi ko naman nakausap. Naiinis talaga ako hindi lang dahil sa di ko siya katabi ah,kundi dahil parang plinano nilang dalawa ni Fabio na ganun talga maging arrangement. Basta yun yun nararamdaman ko nun time na un. Ayoko tuloy makipag-usap sa kanila,natulog na lang ako. Para kcng wla ako sa mood dahil nga naiinis ako talaga sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung anu ang problema nia at nun asa terminal pa lang eh txt cia ng txt. Una tinanung ang bus #,tapos sabi nia txt ko siya pag paalis na,tapos pinapasabi nia na sabihin ko ke Fabio na patigilin un bus pagdting sa tapat nila,tapos ganun ulit tinatanung kung umalis na na. Nakaanim ata na txt na puro yan lang tinatanung nia. Bakit am I his messenger?Me cellphone naman un tao bakit kc ba't di siya ang mismong itxt?!DB?!

Nun nakasakay na siya,balewala lang sakin eh. Tapos biglang tumitingin siya sakin ts bigla silang tumatawa ni Fabio. Di ko kc cla narrinig eh dahil naka-mp4 ako. Nu bang problema nila?! Anung nakakatawa!Ayoko kc ng ganun titignan ka tas tatawa,cnu pa nga ba pinagtatawanan kundi ikaw db?!Buong magdamag un na ganun. Nag-uusap cla ako di ako nakikisali. Pati un pagkain,di ako humingi kc wla na rin ako sa mood eh saka ayoko.Ang ingay ingay pa nila.

Di nga nia ako kinakausap eh. Sino ba namang tanga matutuwa dun?!Me sinabi siya na ewan ko lang kung tama. Sabi nia," gumaganda si Jovelyn ah."Whatttttttttttt? Basta pasensiya na kaibigan ko man,he gets so naughty at times na naiinis na talaga ako. It feels hard for me to trust whatever he says kc gaya ng laging sinasabi ni jackie,wag daw ako mag-expect.Mabuti na un ganun,un di ako naniniwla para di ako madisappoint. Masaya man ako na andun siya pero parang nakalimutan ko na lahat un pag naiisip ko un nangyari eh.Tapos c Fabio sinasabi pa nia,alam ko naman na ayaw mo akong katabi. Alam ko naman eh na nagpaparinig siya. Well they just won.

Masaya na ako na nakasabay ko siya,nakita ko na naman siya. Pero bakit ba niya sinasadyang gawin ang mga bagay na un?para lang ba asarin ako?

I am going home to the province tonight at 8:30PM. So that means that I'll miss doing this for quite some time and friendster and you tube. But I'll be back soon because I am so excited with my last semester. Though I'm not as much as excited to get back to this house, as I have always hated this house fro some good reason.

I'll be back on Nov. 6. Till then!


This is my place. See that two triangular figures. Those are the famous "lakay lakay" and "baket baket" from the legend.

part II

itatagalog ko na lang. tapos dumating na kami sa san lazaro. sabi ko anu back out ka na,nangaasar eh!di muna kami pumasok kc nga ako naiihi na at siya bibili daw siya ng belt nakakhiya naman daw kasi. Antagal ko nag-ikot pa ako sa baba tapos nagtxt siya asan na daw ako. Pagdating ko dun ala naman siya so pumasok na lang ako. Tinext ko siya na andun na ako tapos dumating na siya.sabi ko ikaw na umorder.ayaw niya anu daw naman ang alam niya dyan kya ako na lang.

dumating un order namin.tinatanong niya ako anu daw yun frappe.wala nagkwentuhan lang kami hanggang uwian.na tinalo niya ako minsan nun 2nd year kasi 4th siya, ako 6th honors lang.na tinalo daw din niya ko sa academics nun 4th year pan-lima daw siya pero dahil sinama pati un 3rdyear kaya nauna pa rin ako.na ngayon malaki na ang tiyan ni Loriflor,nakita daw niya sa trabajo nun namalengke sila.tungkol sa outing daw nun december na di naman ako pumunta sa Portabaga daw.na hindi siya makapaniwla na 6th honors si Jacky nun 4th year kami. Sama niya talaga,di niya lang matanggap eh!na pasalamat daw ako late bloomer siya kung hindi wla ako sa honors. na ang dahilan kaya siya umalis sa MMSU dahil me binagsak siya,nagpabaya kasi eh,ayan tuloy!sa ate niya na management pala kala ko accountancy.na bago na phone niya,nakawalkman phone siya.kinabog niya ako dun ah!kala ko pa naman binili niya un pala binigay ni Fabio. "More than friends" daw kasi sila. "YAK!" Iba daw kasi ang pagmamahal ni Fabio sa kanya,wla man lang kahit konting bayad!Basta dito lang umiikot ang mga pinag-uusapan namin nun.

Brinowse ko yung phone,astig tol ang ganda!Lumabas siya me bibilhin daw iniwan niya ung phone. Wag daw ako magbabasa sa inbox,aba pagtingin ko wlang laman,wais ka ah!Pero ang tagal niya bumalik,naiihi na naman kasi ako eh. Kumain daw ba ako ng agahan kasi ang bilis ko kumain di naman daw ako tumataba. Nauumay na siya dun sa donut,un frappe di pa ata siya nakakalahati.Ubusin ko daw!Nun bumalik na siya ako naman ang umalis para mag-cr tinagalan ko din tas nun nakabalik na ako. Umuwi na kami. Babalik pa siya sa UST kc nagpapakuha nga ng form ung mga classmates ng sister niya.Samahan ko pa daw siya. Di na ako pumayag,pagod na ako eh.Un palang paglalakad sa USt napagod na ako,mainit pa. Siya din nman pawisan na nun.Sumakay kami ng jeep tapos bakit parang di na daw ako marunong mag-Ilokano. Ang di daw marunong tumingin sa pinanggalingan masahol pa sa... parang tanga lang eh!Nun Ust na bumaba na siya.

Mula ngayon lagi ng memorable ang Starbucks sa SM San Lazaro para sakin. At ang upuan na yun lagi kong makikita yung sarili namin na nagkwekwentuhan. Masaya pala yung ganun anu,ung dalawa lang kami,first time kasi yun nagyari eh. Walang tension,relaxed lang parang lang kaming ewan.Di ko din makakalimutan ang araw na yun Oct 25,2006.Salamat at di naman niya ako dinisappoint kasi hindi ako nag-expect at ayoko nun maniwala sa kanya.Pero lagi kong matatandaan ung mga sinabi niya.

Yep you heard it right,we went out together today. But it's not a usual date,it's more of a friendly date. It was his promise to me to treat me to Starbucks for everything I have done for him instead of spending it for someone else or doin' something else. I wasn't really expecting that he would really make it up to me that he was telling me the truth because I didn't believe that he really would treat me.

The day started as the usual for me. I woke up late again. I woke up at 9:30am so i sent him a message that I can't make it at 10am so I might be there at 10:30 but then it still didn't work for me because I still have other things to do before going to our meeting place. He said that he would wait fro me and that i should text him if I'm ready. I went to the bus station to chnage my trip then I headed fast to Moraita to get the replacement of my charger. After that, I walk up to Ministop at P. Noval. I arrived there and he was nowhere in sight. I texted him that I was already there. But he was too matagal. Alis na ako, ang tagal mo eh!Then he was there. I saw him because the wall is made of glass. I was expecting him to come inside but he didn't. Then he saw me so I just went out.

Magpapaxerox pa daw siya. hai naku. out of order pa un pnkmalapit so we went to copytrade. Un,then we walk na to UST. He was saying that PSBA is much superior than UST in accountancy because the tops belong to them. I opposed him,that UST is one of the best. We went to the admissions but it was close. Un pala,nilipat lang. He was telling me to do it. I said firmly, you do it. Wala xang laban sakin eh. It was quick naman. So after that we asked the gurad where RAymond Bldg is to be sure. Then we headed out. Then biglang me nakalimutan siya un application form daw nagpapakuha cla,andun na nga cya di pa niya ginawa. So we went back but sad to say lunch break na di na pwede. Then naglakad na kami,ang bagal niya maglakad iniiwan ko talaga siya. HE was busy texting with his walkman phone eh!tapos it rained,malas tas sabi ko magpayong ka.Ayaw niya kya nakishare na lang siya sakin. Nun tumawid kami,biglang me lumiko na taxi mutik na cya masagi. Then sumakay na kami ng jeep to SM San Lazaro. konting usap maya tahimik na naman. Nakatingin siya sa labas ako naman sa me bintana. Sinara ko ng konti un window kc mababasa ako. Tas minsan pag tumitingin din ako sa me pinto tapos bigla siyang lilingon inaalis ko ung tingin ko sa pinto kc bka akala nia siya tinitignan ko. Then bigla nia sinara un bintana kc di ko nga sinara talga un window mababasa ka na sabi nia. Un then dumating na kami sa SM.

to be continued bukas...

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I Cry

Yuri Chika

Every night I find it so hard to sleep
Cause I keep thinking of you
And these feelings from deep
Oh baby I try to hide all these feelings for you
I keep them all out of sight
I don't know what else to do

So I cry
But nobody hears me I cry
It's my only solution I cry
To all this confusion I cry
With all of my heart I cry

Sometimes I wonder in the blink of a night
Would you be waiting to love me
Would you give it a try
I don't know how it's to show you
That I'm not good be real
I'll be eternally faithful
Forever I feel

So I cry
But nobody hears me I cry
It's my only solution I cry
To all this confusion I cry
With all of my heart I cry

No one can tell me that I may be wrong
Cause I know in my heart
This feeling still running strong

Can't get you out of my head
Can't get you out of my heart
Can't get you out of my life
No matter it fell apart

So I cry
But nobody hears me I cry
It's my only solution I cry
To all this confusion I cry
With all of my heart I cry

But nobody hears me I cry
It's my only solution I cry
To all this confusion I cry
With all of my heart I cry


This is another of the songs that I really love. I first heard it on you tube on a My Girl MV. Love the girl's voice and the words.

Kang Eun Soo- 1000 Years

Moment, you came to my heart just by chance
To me you don't seem to be a stranger
It was so long for you to finally find me

For 1000 years I’ve been waiting for you
More than million tears fall in eternal love
Remember forevermore,
We will stand for 1000 years

Sometimes i know it will not be easy with you
Until then i will pray for our true love
Don't ever forget, my love
We will be together

For 1000 years I’ve been waiting for you
More than million tears fall in eternal love
Remember forevermore,
We will stand for 1000 years

Don't say i don't want to hear you say good bye
Please promise me you will always be my love, my love

For 1000 years I’ve been waiting for you
More than million tears fall in eternal love
Remember forevermore,
We will stand for 1000 years




I absolutely love this song. This was from the Korean movie Innocent Steps. I really love this song. The lyrics were tastefully done.

the common view

It was my first time in Tagaytay,embarassing I know but who cares. I really got no time to travel though I really wanted to. It was like a family trip, a family composed of the healthy ones and the skinny ones. It was last Sept.9 and we only lasted there for one and a half days. as much as I wanted to stay longer,some of us can't.

It was originally planned to go to Bataan and as much as I wanted to see the place,some members weren't able to compromise. Then it became Batangas,we thought we were already good to go but suddenly somethings came up. So we eventually ended up with Tagaytay which at first received enormous attacks like there's nothing beautiful there other than those things and places that most people already know and these criticism came from ourselves.

We arrived there at I think 1:00PM and it suddenly rained. I remember that because I was texting him that time. We stacked up our things at our respective rooms and had our snack because I was carving for food long before we arrive. We visited first the Taal Vista Zoo and it was a nice experience. There was this really huge tiger, the tiger was just in chains and not in a cage. I still remember Katrina's words that I should stay away because the tiger might mistaken me for a bone. But the most wackiest thing happened was when Jinky cuddled up with a baby tiger,she placed it on her lap like a baby and it was her expression that always made me laugh everytime I remember it. It was even tagged as " the new version of mother and child."

People's park in the sky was like a skydiving experience. I actually saw the road from up there. I don't how high it was but it really felt like that. But most of all, it was also my first time to ever drink a beer and dance infront of many people in a bar. I actually didn't like the taste of that beer,it stinks and never will I be caught drinking the same thing again but it was absolutely great and I enjoyed in a place that I'm not that accustomed to.

It felt nice to spend the trip with the gang. We always laugh about everything. I realize that you cannnot count the worth of something of aplce just because it far. There's really not much difference whether it's near or far,it's how you enjoy the place.

"Once you love a person, you never stopped loving him. "

It has been 10 months and 10 days when we finally meet again. Still fresh from my momentary stagnant mind full of his images, it was November 5,2005 when we last saw each other. Then after 10 months and 10 days, we saw each other again last September 16,2006 Saturday and the only reason he wanted to see me was the application form of his sister in which I took much effort to go to UST to get her a form. It felt like it was almost a year since we last saw each other. He hasn't change much I think. I barely look at his face because I might be caught up in that situation and I might hope to much not to lose that moment. We talk about some stuffs, about me graduating, my brother whom he knows,the application forms,my new cellphone,our car,about him about to graduate too,etc. But I had to admit that there were times when there was dead air, as in suddenly the two of us stopped talking coz we ran out of words to say to each other. Then he would talk again, I was never the first one to talk again when we both stopped talking. I was happy to see him again because I miss him a lot and I know that it will be long till I see him once again.

The more I wanted that moment not to end, the more it gets to its end. I don't know what was running in his mind and neither do I know how he felt that time that he saw me again. I wished I was like Phoebe in Charmed that at any moment I touched a person I would know automatically what he was feeling. I just hope that he too was happy to see me.

Last night I was talking to Katrina on the phone, while I'm stucked in the dark because that stupid storm came and ruined everything, our rehearsal for that rushed event... what now, and our current, our water supply evrything is a disaster until now! Back to Katrina, there was this one phrase she uttered that she took from a movie quote, " Once you love a person, you never stop loving him." It was the first time I heard that but I realize that it was right. There might be someone else in your life now, but that person your first love maybe is still inside in some corners of your heart and you still love him unconsciously. I was turned back from the past. I was a Sophomore, when I met this guy, he was my classmate in our Journalism11 subject. He was a shy mestizo tall guy. We were somewhat close and I was like falling into him and that time my first love, the one I haven't seen for 10 months and 10 days was passive those days. He never came to my mind because I was thinking about this guy. But when the term ended and we never saw each other again, the thoughts about my first love came back. So that time that I was so into this guy, I momentarily stopped thinking about my first love. But then it all comes back to him still because I have never really forgotten him. I have srtaed to love him before and I never stopped loving him until now.

It has been 10 months and 10 days when we finally meet again. Still fresh from my momentary stagnant mind full of his images, it was November 5,2005 when we last saw each other. Then after 10 months and 10 days, we saw each other again last September 16,2006

objected by fate

The famous Ms. Jackie Lyn Salenga,the diva of our class and one of my college friends once said this to me: " parang pinaglalaruan kayo ng tadhana kasi ang lapit ng tirahan niyo pero hindi kau magkita kita." I suddenly realize that what she really meant about that was we are absolutely not for each other. Let's count the ways ok. I live just here in Sampaloc, Don Quijote St. just infront Ramon Magsaysay High School and he lives just nearby in a boarding house at P. Noval St. That is just a few blocks away. I attend the Far Eastern University and he on the other hand attends PSBA which is just afew steps away from my school. That is why I began to think it's really weird that not even once for 3 years now, we didn't even see or pass by each other when I always happen to pass by. His excuse to me was that he was always at the library. I've known him for 7 years and 8 months now to be somewhat exact and I've always known that he wasn't the type who loves coozying up at the library.It's not a matter of coincidence,it never seemed like it. Maybe it's just the works and wonders of FATE.

*******

If it were a absolutely redundant but melancholic love story it will be a happy one because fate supports it. But I guess fate is really not just on our side or should I say not on my side. Yeah that's even more correct to say. Fate always find a way to get two people close together so that both will realize their worth for each other but it's not happening for us. Sadly but undeniably true and that's for me, not him. Maybe fate just happened to have some mistake on our paths. I just hope so but it's not that very possible. Maybe fate just wants the two of us to be pure SPECIAL friends like he once told me.

*******

Maybe, he was actually born to love someone else and that someone else is clearly not me. And I was also born to love someone else and that's not him.

"It's like climbing a tree, you can never go down when there's no stairs"... berns

these words were from my classmate Berns just a few weeks ago. I suddenly realize that he was very right in saying this. when you climb a mountain or a tree you need a rope or a wooden stairs to help you go down or else evrything will be harder on you or you might even get yourself hurt if you don't have something to help you go down.

****

i realize that i'm still in that situation that i myself is the primary reason i can't get out. i'm stuck in that moment forever when no one's forcing me to remain there,it's just me and it's my fault. one can never move on if one doesn't have someone to cling on. one needs another person to pass on that attention. i'm not saying that you have to find someone to replace that person and make him (it's better said in tagalog.) as "panakip butas".what i'm saying is that when you are in a painful and disastrous moment you need someone to console you without the intention that you are just using him to do get someone else out of your stupid head.

***

i learned that you should also be open about possibilities. i mean, i myself is a bit cold to guys and i never like the idea of textmate. come on, i never believe that one can fall inlove just by words without seeing each other. we'll see if that's true when that two persons will finally meet eye to eye and if one them is not physically blessed that love love thing in text will quickly out of your sight.that's proven you see though i haven't had any experience but i've heard lots and that's enough. that is why im not encouraging this idea to get myself caught up in a wild situation.what i mean about being open is that we someone comes to you in a nice manner take note, there's no reason to close the door when you see that he's quite serious. you should see ech other firts and not the other way around.

****

i am still not over him until now. if i count the years, i think it's almost three years but take note he didn't court me, i was just in the background until now. the reason why i can't be over him is that there's no one else involve with me right now.that is why i can't go down and i can't move on. i don't if that stairs, or that brifge will ever come my way. if not i think i'll be forever stuck in his background.

My girl, the absolutely favorite korean series is about to air its final episode today at 10PM. Well, i have been and will always be totally immersed with the story of julian and jasmine.it's gonna be sad for me and the huge fans of this series ofcourse. I just really love the unique way of storytelling the events in the story.We have seen supposedly brothers and sisters who fell in love with each other in autumn in my heart but this one is way way much lovelier aside from the fact that it's not dreadfully sad from beginning to end,it's all about crying and they both took their lives what a pity that's why I didn't like it much.With My Girl, they're cousins "daw" and being together for most of the time eventually made them fell for each other. the character of jasmine is not the usual damsel in distress because she's known for being great in telling lies and she is a really happy go lucky girl.While the character of julian is a snob and serious young man,not they type of carlo in lovers in paris,he's much more reluctant in expressing his feelings and that one would never sense his insides.

After being exposed to lots of asian series like lovers in paris,save the last dance,meteor garden,princess lulu etc... I have already come down to one judgment and that is perceiving My Girl to be the no.1 and the best among those that i have seen. Julian and Jasmine are always perfect for each other on cam or not and they really make a good chemistry in romance or in comic acts.

Bye bye My Girl but my girl will always be no.1 and thank you very much for ABS CBN for bringing it to the grounds of the Philippines. Kudos also for bringing Lee Dong Wook here in Manila. We will, as fans will always remember the shy and gracious Lee Dong Wook as Julian and the ever jolly Lee Da Hae as Jasmine.