Friday, September 29, 2006


"Once you love a person, you never stopped loving him. "

It has been 10 months and 10 days when we finally meet again. Still fresh from my momentary stagnant mind full of his images, it was November 5,2005 when we last saw each other. Then after 10 months and 10 days, we saw each other again last September 16,2006 Saturday and the only reason he wanted to see me was the application form of his sister in which I took much effort to go to UST to get her a form. It felt like it was almost a year since we last saw each other. He hasn't change much I think. I barely look at his face because I might be caught up in that situation and I might hope to much not to lose that moment. We talk about some stuffs, about me graduating, my brother whom he knows,the application forms,my new cellphone,our car,about him about to graduate too,etc. But I had to admit that there were times when there was dead air, as in suddenly the two of us stopped talking coz we ran out of words to say to each other. Then he would talk again, I was never the first one to talk again when we both stopped talking. I was happy to see him again because I miss him a lot and I know that it will be long till I see him once again.
The more I wanted that moment not to end, the more it gets to its end. I don't know what was running in his mind and neither do I know how he felt that time that he saw me again. I wished I was like Phoebe in Charmed that at any moment I touched a person I would know automatically what he was feeling. I just hope that he too was happy to see me.
Last night I was talking to Katrina on the phone, while I'm stucked in the dark because that stupid storm came and ruined everything, our rehearsal for that rushed event... what now, and our current, our water supply evrything is a disaster until now! Back to Katrina, there was this one phrase she uttered that she took from a movie quote, " Once you love a person, you never stop loving him." It was the first time I heard that but I realize that it was right. There might be someone else in your life now, but that person your first love maybe is still inside in some corners of your heart and you still love him unconsciously. I was turned back from the past. I was a Sophomore, when I met this guy, he was my classmate in our Journalism11 subject. He was a shy mestizo tall guy. We were somewhat close and I was like falling into him and that time my first love, the one I haven't seen for 10 months and 10 days was passive those days. He never came to my mind because I was thinking about this guy. But when the term ended and we never saw each other again, the thoughts about my first love came back. So that time that I was so into this guy, I momentarily stopped thinking about my first love. But then it all comes back to him still because I have never really forgotten him. I have srtaed to love him before and I never stopped loving him until now.