Overage Thinking

Overage Thinking,does it sound familiar?Well it does,it's actually a play of Teddy Geiger's debut album entitled Underage Thinking.But I'm reversing it to "Overage Thinking" for the fact that I'm not underage anymore.

For the past few years,I am actually thinking overage.I'm thinking overage because at 22 years old and still not having a single history of a boyfriend is absolutely wrecking.Not even a single suitor in my whole 22 years is evident.How bad can this really get?!Twenty two is too young to get married but too old to have her first boyfriend just yet.You see,I'm not really the school campus heartthrob kind of girl when I was in school.I'm more of the nerd type of kid in school.Quiet,almost serious all the time,aloof etc.I was like that and still kind of like that until now.Maybe these were and still are the reasons why I'm honestly way past the time.The reasons why I'm thinking overage right now.

Sure,every kid have their own crushes and things like that.When they grow up,they go to highschool and have their first boyfriend;first kiss;first date;first sex and all that are firsts.They go to college and have their second,third and what countless boyfriends including flings and chatmates or textmates.Me,I didn't have any of these but ofcourse I wouldn't want to get engage in any kind of premarital sex when I was in highschool until now,alright. It's just that I didn't experience those other three firsts that are usually being experienced by girls in their highschools days. I was really a sheltered girl,partly I think because of my family and the way I was brought up.

Higschool come and go and so does college.Things like boyfriends or others like this didn't really happen to me then.Memorables ones were purely academics or with friends but never with romantic involvements.The fact of my having a crush with a classmate when I was in high school is not counted because it was just a crush. And that crush of mine,kept bugging me with his weird antics but it never translated to something romantic cause he got a girlfriend a year older than us when we were in our third year.

In college,it was weird cause I didn't have, not even one crush until I graduated.I still like that crush of mine in high school but we haven't seen each other since graduating high school and besides we weren't really close. He was studying then in MMSU in Batac, Ilocos Norte and that was all I know then.

My second year in college came,surprisingly that crush transferred here in Manila. And another surprise,he even enrolled in a school near mine.This was the time when we kinda started talking like friends. I think he didn't have a choice,cause I was the only one he knows who lives nearby then. So he started asking me favors and I started helping him and to keep in check I still like him. But still were not yet close then,I would rather say we were just friends on talking terms.We only get to see each other or talk to each other when he wanted my help and just that. So third year and fourth year came and nothing else happened.

Graduation came and I started working and he started reviewing for the board exam. We were totally lost in our own worlds.And October came and it's not a surprise that he passed the board.Apart from that,I was the the first one whom he broke the news.
Then November,he started working in Makati where I also worked then.Coincidentally or was it by choice,I think it's the latter. So he ended up working near mine.And we started eating lunch together,going home together,talking more often.That was it,a complete turnaround of events.

And this year came,another turnaround of events.He has changed,everything has changed.We weren't really like this before,but it's different now.The way we talk to each other has changed. We now talked often on the phone and he's saying things that's hard for me to imagine.We see each other now more frequent. Things have really changed.I don't know how to explain this or even describe it.Maybe some would call it M.U. but I really don't know myself what to call it.But again,I am still under the spell of overage thinking

Lights in Makati





Every 6:30pm,Ate Irene and I began to move our way home.We always take the underpass to cross from Salcedo St. to Ayala. It always strike me so pleasantly whenever I see these lights in Ayala Avenue. It never fails to amazed me everytime I see them. It's only here in Makati that I see these kinds of christmas lights. I don't see them anywhere not even here in Manila. I love those star shaped christmas lights that looked like they were skins of the trees. They really glow at night and I really like looking at them.

I think I'll have to remember these nights in Makati and those christmas lights always. It's because they were also the times when we used to go home together. We used to do this then,when he started working in Makati. Although,he bugs me most of the time cause he can't even wait for me. When I get there he's already at the front of the line of passengers waiting for the shuttle. He's not really a gentleman to be all honest about it.

I did have good times in Makati because of Ate Irene and others I have met while I was there. I had really startling moments with him and that this has started the new way we treat each other. And the christmas lights on those trees that makes me remember that there's light in every unexpected slump of our lives.However,I don't see myself getting back there anytime soon. But those lights,I will always love to see again.

Crush - David Archuleta

My Hazy Future





I got this vision, this very fuzzy vision about me and him. It's very fuzzy that I couldn't see my way out.

Ang Kunwa – kunwariang Bridal Shower

Bridal shower ang tawag sa party na ginagawa para sa isang bride to be. Pero sa kasong to wala naman talaga ikakasal. Nangyari ang kalokohang ito nung Sabado, October 18, 2008 sa unit ni Kennedy sa me Cristobal St.

Nung Friday kasi ng gabi eh nagkaroon ng inuman sa kanila dahil gra-graduate na si Fabio sa college. Kaya ang butihin at kapita-pitagan niyang bestfriend na si Kennedy ay nag-throw ng simple party para sa kaniya. Andun si Jacky ng time na yun at nakita niya ang kakapalan ng tatlo na magtanggal tanggal ng mga t-shirt nila. In short, hindi man lang sila nahiya kay Jacky na andun din. Siguro nakalimot na ang mga loko sa sobrang kalasingan.

Mabalik tayo sa Sabado,nagpunta kami dun nila Jacky, Salie, at Ivy parang karugtong lang ito nun Friday. Dahil sa puro sila lalake nun at nag-iisa lang si Jacky kaya ngayon mga girls naman daw. Kumain, tumawa,internet at dvd marathon lang ang pinaggagagawa namin dun.

Natuon ang pansin naming sa dumble niya. Totoo pala ang pinag-mamayabang niya sa akin na nag-dudumble nga siya. Eto ang mga sumunod na nangyari.
Jov: eh mukhang wala naman nagbago eh.
Kennedy: tignan mo ( sabay pakita ng biceps na wala naman talagang muscle ). Gusto mo bumitin ka pa eh.
(Bigla ko nasabi yung ginawa nilang kalokohan nung Friday.)

Jov: Totoo ba na nghubad hubad daw kayo kagabi?Hindi na kayo nahiya kay Jacky.
Kennedy: Gusto mo ata makita eh( parang ganito yun sinabi niya)
Jov: Hindi mo naman kaya eh kasi wala ka naman talaga mapapakita.
Kennedy: Hinahamon mo ba ako jov?! Cge!Pero dapat me isa din sa inyo magtanggal ng t-shirt.( Tawanan lang kaming lahat)
Jacky: Cge,labas muna kaming tatlo. Bridal shower to.
( Iniwan kami nun tatlo at lumabas nga talaga sila. Ayun nadyahe tuloy si mokong )
(Pagbalik nung tatlo,me hirit pa siya. )
Kennedy: Wag na lang yung taas, yung baba na lang yun naman ang asset ko eh.
(Akalain mo marunong na siya ng mga ganung kalokohang hirit ah!)
Kennedy: Gusto mo lang ata makita jov eh. Cge pwede mong hawakan.
( Masyado naman siyang feeling ah. Anu kala niya ba kagandahan ang katawan niya para gustuhin ko makita .)

At eto ang kunwari-kunwariang bridal shower na nangyari sa araw na yun. Hindi dahil sa ikakasal na ako. Panu naman ikakasal ang walang boyfriend. At kung magkakaroon man ng bridal shower ang kahit sinuman sa amin,siguro hindi naman si Kennedy ang kukunin nila. Hindi naman sa iniismol ko si Kennedy,siyempre alam naman lahat halos naming mgkaklase kung anu bang meron di ba. Natatawa lang ako sa mga hirit niya. Ngayon lang kasi nangyari ang ganun. Yung nagkakaroon na kami ng bonding time. Pero the thing is, a dare is still a dare and he lost.

October Quirk

October has given its name a new gist. First week of October 2007, when I bought my most expensive purchase yet in my whole 21 years of living. It was my very first cool hi-tech phone, a Sony Ericsson K550i. It was one of the latest handsets then. I was really intending to buy W200i but since it is phased out already, I then opted for K700i. But one agent at Semicon suggested that I should just buy K550i because it’s not joystick. So there, I got my first cool phone at less than Php10,000.

And today is October 23, 2008. It has been a week and 4 days since October 12 when bought this laptop at Gilmore which I’m using now to type this entry. It is an Asus 1000H, the newest unit from Asus Eee PC series. It is ranked No. 1 and most popular at http://asia.cnet.com/reviews/notebooks with an impressive rating of 8.8. Plus, this has been recommended to me by Kennedy. Well, thanks a lot to him cause I wouldn’t be able to buy this if not for him.

What makes this laptop extra special is because this is my most expensive purchase ever and he had a very special participation for making this possible for me. I couldn’t thank him more for this. He was very hands – on when we were still having talks about it until we have purchased it. He was there watching it being configured, he never left and told me take it away.

He also downloaded software’s that I needed: itunes,limewire,winamp etc. He was so patient in doing this, that it took me by surprise why so sudden he was giving me all this help. At the same time, these things has made this October out of ordinary. My first laptop and him, two of the most treasured pieces of my life. Things have never been this happy for me. I owe this all to him for making one of my imaginings probable. He sure has made it up to me that he has felt remorse about what has happened, when he wasn’t able to give me the Harry Potter collection he promised last December 20.07.

I told him on Tuesday night, October 21 that I appreciate all the efforts he has done. Even though it wasn’t really expected of him to do all those things for me. I am very thankful. I also told him that I’m not being dramatic; I’m just giving him a rightful response for his very unexpected efforts. And all he could muster was a “gudnyt “with a winking emoticon.


From now on, October will always be incomparable.

Ang Telepono Sa DQ

Ang telepono sa DQ ay ngri-ring lang sa pagtawag ng mga taong malapit sakin sa buhay college. Kadalasan ay si Elaine aka Doreena,Katrina aka Victoria at Anna aka Margarita ang nagiging dahilan kaya nagagamit ko ang telepono sa DQ.Pero simula nung first week of August 2008,mukhang nagbago na ang dahilan kaya ngri-ring ang telepono sa DQ. Hindi na madalas ang pag-uusap namin ng tres marias.

Wala kahit isa sa mga malalapit na kaibigan ko noong high school and nakakausap ko sa telepono ng DQ. Pero isang tao and pumilit na baguhin yun. Siya yung tao na sobra kong kinaiinisan nung high school. Hindi naman talaga kami close ng taong to kung tutuusin. Parang ang labas eh magkakilala lang kami ganun lang. Matagal tagal na rin kaming hindi naguusap ng taong to. Simula to nung umalis ako sa Makati at naiwan naman siya dun. Nagkataon kasi na naging magkalapit ang pinapasukan namin o baka sinadya niyang piliin yung malapit sakin.

Siguro dahil sa Makati days kaya nasasabi niya na close kami. Pagbalik ko dito ng January,hindi ko na siya kinakausap nun.Tutal anu naman ba ang bago dun eh hindi ko naman talaga siya masyadong tinetxt o anu pa man.

Pagdating ng August,me ngtxt sakin. Si ading Jackie na younger sister niya
jackie: Manang kumusta?asan ka na daw?
jov:andito pa rin sa don quijote.
jackie: ania kano ti landline mo manang?
jov: bakit?7120600
jackie: tumawag kano ni manong manang.

At dito nagsimula mag-iba ang silbi ng telepono sa DQ. Sa ngayon,wala ng ibang tumatawag sa akin kundi siya. Hindi ko rin alam kung anu ang motibo niya o dahilan kung bakit siya tumatawag. Pero oo nga naman hindi rin naman kasi ako nagtatanong eh.
Kaya ang telepono sa DQ ang naging instrumento para siguro paglapitin kami.Dahil kaya ako na mismo sana ang lalayo sa paningin niya. Siguro,hindi ko alam.

Telepono sa DQ,salamat.

First Gilmore Sunday

Sunday,October 12,2008 is a very fateful day to me.It marked another part of my life history. It all started when I told him about my plans to buy myself a notebook.I think, after some thinking he decided to give me a hand. Which to me is very surprising considering that we are not just talking about small amounts here.Well,he could have just said that he'd accompany me to buy since he's the one who knows a lot about computers. It felt like I was knocked off my seat when he voluntarily obliged that I could use his credit card so that I could buy a better bargain. I only had 20k cash and 5k of it was from my mother which I will be paying installment. Automatically, I asked why so sudden he's offering this really big help to me. He said that he needs cash to buy a computer or two I guess for his sister,Ate Jaliza because the money will be arriving later than expected. But you see,If I was him I wouldn't even think about letting somebody use my credit card. If we were brothers,sisters,very close cousins,parents etc that is tolerable but we're not. We just happen to be friends.

My college friend Anna who knows almost everything about me and him gave me a very good discussion over the phone about this. She said,even though he needed the cash, maybe he also made this to appear as an alibi so he could lend me his credit card. I was thinking at the back of my head that she was right. I even asked him,would he do the same thing to anyone else of our friends and he said no because to him,I'm special. It's so nice to hear him say these kind of words. But I don't really know if he meant everything he's said.

On Saturday,October 11,we both have agreed to meet up at my place at 9am. The next day,I woke up at 9am so I'm practically late. So we ended up meeting up at 10am. If I had woken up early and we took off at 9am,he might have seen my second older brother. I don't know what should have happened if my brother saw us. You see,my brother isn't really aware of him going to our house or of any guy visiting me. So I'm quite sure he's going to ask me or us something. Luckily, he didn't see us cause he left earlier.

So we walked together and took a jeep to Legarda. To my dismay,I paid our fare for the jeep. I was thinking,since it's just cheap amount then I'll let him pass this time. However,when we reached LRT Legarda station,he asked me to pay for his fare as well. ( Kuripot talaga!) So we boarded the LRT and sat while talking about stuffs like my brother Jorge and Ate Jean asking him during Ate Jaliza's wedding about me.

After a few minutes,we are already in Gilmore.His bestfriend who's also my friend was already there.Fast forward, we went to a store at the second floor of a building. There's this open alley so I went out of the store and went there. After a few minutes, he came to talk to me. And he suddenly took my cap off and tried it on him. Then we went down and continue to look for a good buy. Almost every store allows only straight payment. But then finally,we found one which allows installment.
I was really touched that when they were configuring the laptop,he never left at the receiving counter and continued to look after it while I was there sitting.

Fast forward,we ended up going home through a taxi. Those boxes were really big,so me and him ended up sitting together sandwich at the front seat. It was really uncomfortable for me. You see,it was the first time that we ever had that really close contact with each other. His shoulders was brushing against mine. It really was uncomfy but so sweet. To my shock, he suddenly touched my right knee. I'm not really used to this kind of feeling,it sends chills to my body specially because I like or love him for that matter.

This day was also the first day I have ever stepped on his unit. And anothet first is that I ate lunch there with them. So many firsts have happened this day. I couldn't even explain the feeling. I don't know if I could ever get myself to call this thing between us as "closeness" or maybe something more than that. He's saying a lot of things that you know so sweet to hear but I don't know If I should take it seriously. I don't know what's on his mind and what is this thing between us. This all started when he began calling me first week of August. He started saying sweet nothings and ridiculously sweet words. We usually talked over the phone two or three times a week until now. It's really hard for me to expect or even asked him what all of this means. But if there's one thing constant,that is what and how I feel for him.