The Attack of the Iraqi Shoes

I reckon it was Tuesday morning when I heard Ted Failon over the DZMM radio when he said, who is that president who got thrown by a pair of shoes. I thought he was just having some kind of joke but it wasn't a joke, it’s real. That certain president was Pres.George Bush. While having a press conference in Baghdad, Iraq; a TV correspondent suddenly threw his shoe at him and said “This is your farewell kiss, you dog!". However, the correspondent missed Bush so he threw his other shoe at him but failed to hit the target. This was really funny. When I first heard of it, I thought an American was the culprit but it was actually an Iraqi and not just an Iraqi but a Iraqi correspondent. Now, the shoes are being sold for $10M. This just might be the most expensive shoes ever and it might even make it to Guinness.

Suddenly, some politicians have shared their concerns about the shoe throwing incident. It might just actually happen here, who knows. We never know, the palace might announce that reporters are banned from wearing shoes or slippers anymore during press cons.Because, one of them might just throw their shoes or worst all of them might throw their shoes. But some administration allies are confident it won't happen here.Well, we just have to wait and see. As we all know the country is trapped into a whirlwind of surprises.

Looking Back

I wrote last month about how much I miss the lights in Makati.But this year, this tree and these lights are the ones I always see everyday this December.It was almost a year now when I left my work in Makati. Although,I actually didn't want to leave but I had to. I miss some people there except for one of course. But we just have to move on and move forward. We just have to carry on with our lives.

This December will mark another end of a year and another things I should just forget and leave in the past.One important thing that I should just leave in the past is something that concerns a friend who I thought was a real friend.I don't want to tell the details anymore,I've gone tired of retelling the story all over again. Although,I wasn't totally brainwashed because first things first I had big doubts of him from the beginning.I may have doubts but still one cannot miss being hurt by something that is make believe. My friend Jinky told me that it's not good to just leave everything behind and not even try to ask and talk about it with the person involved. You can't really move on if you have questions smoldering your mind.But I made up my decision and I won't talk about it with him or even ask.Because this is my way and I can't force myself to do something I really can't do. Maybe it's time to forget but not forgive.It's time to put it in the past and never open it again,the incident and the person who caused it.


Every December will be the mark of sending my ill fated memories to the past.This is the second one I'll be sending and I'll be trying my very best to not remember it again.I wouldn't be suprise at all that someday news about him being wed will come to me. But I rather not hear any news from him at all.Things just won't be the same again,I know but I did manage in the past without his presence and I still can.


Next year when I see this Christmas tree again,I will be more enlightened.And I'm sure my holidays will always be as merry as it had always been.

Under the Rug

I always had this thought that there must be something out of order these past few months. B.A., B.A. for Bad Ass has been sending me feelers in which I had big doubts regarding his real intention. A certain report came to me some few months ago from a common friend of ours telling me that Girl’s best friend told him that B.A. and Girl are still at it. I did believe it besides; our friend doesn’t have any reason to lie to me. So while BA has been sending me pseudo feelers since August until October, I honestly doubt the words that are coming out from his mouth. I doubt if he ever said anything true to me at all because of what I’ve heard from our friend. That is why I haven’t been optimistic about him and the things he’s been doing or saying. Honestly, he’s 100% doubtful from the start.

Coincidentally, Girl’s best friend added me on Friendster. You see, I actually know the Girl and the Girl’s best friend because we were from the same high school. So it’s not really a surprise that Girl’s best friend added me. I had this sudden urge to ask her about Girl and BA. And luckily she answered obligingly. And the answer was a no surprise at all. I’ve heard it already from a common friend of ours (BA). The only difference this time was that the answer came from the most reliable source. It came from the person who would never lie about it.

What really irks me is the fact that BA has indeed been lying to me all along. This answer confirmed everything that he’s really a bad ass. Those feelers were not true not even one of them. But what was he up to after all? Why did he have to do all of those? Is it because he just wants to spite me? Or was he merely flirting? Then he’s not just a bad ass but a flirt as well. What with the “it’s complicated” status on friendster? Why on earth could he just tell the truth about it? What does he want from me? I’ve been living a peaceful and orderly life when he started to get his trash on it. I’m not just speaking for myself; I’m also speaking for the Girl. Does she know what he’s been doing behind her back? Is it justifiable to flirt with someone else just because your girlfriend is away and won’t be there to catch you? I don’t deserve to be treated like this by a BA. And she doesn’t deserve this as well. I’m not naïve to think it’s just me who was victimized.


It’s his birthday tomorrow and I won’t be sending him a greeting. It will be just an ordinary day because he’s not worthy. Even this coming Christmas and New Year, there will be nothing from me. This is my early New Year’s resolution and I’ll be starting it now. If we’ll ever cross paths which I hope not, I’ll just pretend I didn’t see him. Wherever he is, it’s wherever I’m not present. This is the time to move on and move forward. No matter what, I’ve been under the rug because of him.

Naming Names

This morning, I wasn’t able to use my ipod due to some unexpected reasons. I ended up listening to the radio through my phone. I was listening to Mellow 94.7 “The wake – up show”. The dj’s were talking about names and nicknames. The female dj was talking about someone she knew whose name was” Monica “. When this Monica was a kid, people used to call her “Nica” for the reason I think because she’s a kid and suits her best and it sounds cute. When she grew older, she started using her whole name “Monica“because the name sounds like a strong and an independent kind of woman.

Then the guy dj started talking about his own name story. When he was in college, professors call them not only him by their surnames. To me and to the female dj, that’s kinda off. I myself don’t like to be called by my surname unless with a Ms. But he said, professors do this so as not to confuse themselves because there are some students with the same names. Another instance, there are four students named Anna. So they call them Anna 1, Anna 2, Anna 3 and Anna 4. Well lucky me, I didn’t have a classmate whom I shared the same name since grade school. Though I once had a classmate in college with the same surname, Joanna Marie.


It suddenly dawned on me the days when people used to call me “Pot – Pot “. When I was a kid, our neighbors call me by that name. I don’t know where it came from and how it came to be. I never got upon a chance to ask my parents about it. My three brothers have their own silly nicknames when they were kids. The second eldest was Carag. The third eldest was Tonting. And the fourth was Pitok. When they grew older, Carag became Jay. Tonting became Onson and Pitok became Ogie.

The other name I ‘m called is “Len – Len “. I think when I was already 10, they’ve been calling me “Len – Len “. Our neighbors and my brothers and parents call me by this name. When I started high school, it became “Len “. You see, it’s doesn’t kind of suits me if I’m still called Len – Len at the age of 13 or 14. My classmates call me by my full name then.

College, my classmates started calling me “jov “. I don’t even remember who started this but maybe it’s because it’s the first syllable in my name. From then on, all college friends and classmates call me jov until now. But, lately some of my high school friends have been adapting the nickname. Kidong, Kennedy, Jen and Joanne have been lately calling me jov. Officemates, formers, superiors, and mentors call me by this name too. But college friends were actually the starting place of this name.


It’s really funny when I remember what I used to be called. Len – Len was retained minus one Len plus the new addition Jov in my name or nicknames list. Len will always be family and Jov will always be with friends.

Days in Makati and Conversations in August

This is the third part of "Questions and Answers" and the follow up to "Question Mark".

So what’s the difference of Days in Makati versus Conversations in August? The difference is that when we were in Makati, he didn’t have a choice and I didn’t get used to it that much actually. We didn’t really see each other everyday then. This maybe why I didn’t get used to it and another is that we actually didn’t get to talk to each other longer. On the other hand, when we’re on the phone we actually get to talk longer about much stuff. I think it was more intimate than eating together and going home together. Although we don’t get to see each other on the phone, it’s more interesting because we get to miss each other.


However, he became so busy these past few days and he doesn’t want any intrusion from anyone else including me. I myself have many things in my mind to do and I don’t want any intrusion from him as well. If he doesn’t have time to call me then I won’t have time for him too. It’s payback time. If this is his way then I should just give it back to him the same way.

I still have doubts if I’m going to greet him on his birthday. But one thing I’m sure, if he will have some gathering and he invites me, I won’t come. This time is my time to show him that I don’t have time for him as well. If he can do that, I surely can do. Who knows, I won’t have feelings for him anymore by the time he gets himself to call me again someday.


The thing about him is that he is so relaxed. He is so relaxed that he feels that I won’t get mad even though he disregards me for a week or two or more. Because he’s so comfortable thinking that I’m always here whenever he needs something or whenever he wants to.


I’ll start wandering off from now on. I had my own peaceful world then, without his presence but so abruptly he suddenly interrupted my tranquility and turned everything out of order.

November 27, 2008

Question Mark

This is part two to “Questions and Answers” that I wrote last Saturday, November 22. I’m writing this now because something was up last night. Mr. Question Mark suddenly called out of nowhere. I was at that time reading some book reviews when I heard my eldest brother hitting the ceiling to call attention that someone was on the phone. I went down and saw the phone but it never occurred to me that it might be him. So I answered the phone and when he hasn’t answered, I knew it was him. I didn’t have expectations or whatsoever that it might be him. It was practically out of my mind.


To my ultimate dismay, all he could say was the following: (1.) Fabio told him that I just left him at our living room last Saturday when he came to return my notebook and he was complaining. (2) He was reviewing for some international exam. (3) He needs money because he has already spent quite a sum of money for his self review. (4) He asked if my notebook is ok now. These four petty points were just the things he could gather to come out from his mouth.


I hated it, if all these things were all he could say then he really shouldn’t have called at all. Anna, my college friend said in a rude way, “He called just to say those? “ Another spiteful thing was that he hasn’t called or even sent me a text message for a week and five days. I know he said in November 13 that he was busy and all that. But this is my idea of being busy, even when you’re busy if you really want to reserve a little time for that person, you can and you will. And without hesitation he didn’t. I know I shouldn’t be complaining because in the first place I’m not his girlfriend and he is neither my boyfriend.

Back in the days, I also did the same thing to him this January until July. But this and he taking no notice of me for a week and five days are poles apart. We began talking; going home together and eating more often. Coincidentally, his workplace was near mine. Besides, I wasn’t the one who started this, it was him. And I thought this was particularly normal since he didn’t have a choice because I was the only person he knows working in Makati then. So when I left Makati, I didn’t tell him and by January, I started disregarding him since I thought it wasn’t necessary to text or call him. Besides, what’s the point in doing so because I knew nothing could translate into something romantic. But it’s basically different now since he began calling me in August. Then after that, we started talking to the phone frequently and although I liked it, I was getting to a point that I’ll get use to this routine. And yes, I did get used to it so I started expecting him to call at least twice a week. When he doesn’t call, I get mad at him and he actually did this twice already.


Note: I call him Question Mark because I think he has this big question mark all over him. He seemed to be confused and he doesn't seem to get his guts to say what he really wants to say.

November 22, 2008 (Saturday)

Questions and Answers


I haven’t found the answers. And I’m not sure if I ever will. I only have questions in my head and they keep popping out even though I don’t want to. Because I don’t have the answers, this is maybe why my head keeps on asking. He only has the answers and I’m quite sure that he’s not in any way to clarify things and answer my questions. He’s a bit of a coward, I guess because he can’t even set all things straight all at one time. But when, when I have found myself doomed enough to go away and give up?

The last time I ever talked to him was last Thursday, November 13. He said he was busy and that’s the reason why he hasn’t been calling these past few days. Well, I really shouldn’t expect him to call everyday because he doesn’t really do that. He actually calls two or three times a week. But since last week he only called once because he is busy like what he said. Besides, I’m really not in any rightful position to demand or even complain because as we know and as everyone knows, we are not in a commitment. We are in a whirlwind situation that I myself even find it hard to spell things out. Because he can only spell his own words and actions, not me.

This week, he hasn’t called not once. The only time he called was on Tuesday but that was only because Fabio, his best friend is about to come at my place to get the receipt. He was that concern about Fabio. He was worried that Fabio might wait long for me. And I hated how he abruptly hang off the phone when he called and found that I was already home and that means Fabio won’t have to wait anymore. I haven’t heard from him since last Thursday and it seems that he doesn’t want me to be part of it then I won’t be part of it. Maybe, he’s still busy but no matter how busy a person can get if you wanted to put an extra little time for that person, you will and you can. But it seems that to him, he doesn’t have that little extra time for me. So unlike the way that I always have an extra time for him when he usually asks me for favors then. It is so unfair. He is so unfair.

I’ll give him a week or two and it starts November 24 and will probably end in November 30 or December 7. If he still doesn’t call even once in those two weeks, then it’s high time I give it a permanent rest. This also goes to say that I will never be talking to him again or see him again in any way. Besides, it won’t be a hard thing to do because it’s always been like this ever since. I will just have to resume what I have started. This will finally bring to an end to every unanswered question in my mind. Though they are yet to be answered, I guess it’s high time that I just have to leave it as it is. No more petty fights and misunderstandings. No more damn excuses. No more expectations. No more promises. No more of this and no more of him.

P.S.
Although, I still owe him Php 6,000.00 that I have yet to pay. I will find a way to pay him without talking or seeing him. I will and I know I can find a way. I am not like him who have many excuses and irrelevant reasons.

The Creepiest Horror Movie

This is quite too late for Halloween but I don’t think there’s something else more scarier and spookier than Ringu,a Japanese horror movie directed by Hideo Nakata and released in 1999. It was based on a novel of the same name by Koji Suzuki.

The story circles about a cursed video tape that when you watched it, you will get a strange phone call telling you you’ll die in seven days. And the eerie part is the way people die. When the deadline comes, the TV set suddenly turns blackout and then a spine-chilling girl comes out of the TV set crawling and coming out for you. Well, she doesn’t kill you herself physically. She kills you by scaring the hell out of your wits. And you wouldn’t want to stare at the victims long enough, you’ll just scare yourself. The victims’ mouths were opened permanently and their faces were painted with gruesome horror. Those ghastly images were like blinking lights that kept popping in my head. But of course the scariest image is that of Sadako, the girl from the TV set. I think the night when I went to sleep and I close my eyes, her reflection keeps coming back to my senses. It definitely gave me goose bumps. I could hardly sleep then.

Ringu, has absolutely started a new trend in the horror genre. No doubt, Japanese filmmakers make the best horror movies. Not even their Hollywood remakes can match up to that. When Ringu became a big hit, Hollywood started showing interest in Japanese horror movies. They started with a remake of Ringu and then came The Grudge and others followed.

It has a really simple story but definitely very original in nature. When it came out, I was like wow I’ve never seen anything like this. A cursed video tape and a creepy girl from the TV out to kill you on your deadline. No bloodsucking and flesh hungry zombies or vampires. No knives or any pointed objects used to kill victims. No chainsaw. No corny ghosts. No white Halloween masks. No possessed girl who can move her head. No creepy voices. Just pure and original spine-chilling movie. I won’t tell the whole story. Go on, watch it and freak yourself out.

CHANGE: WE CAN BELIEVE IN




George Putong is a Filipino-American promo producer and freelance writer-editor who was born in Philadelphia,now based in Manila.This video blog he made was featured On CNN iReport.

Like him,I believe in CHANGE and now is the time for CHANGE.I support Senator Barack Obama and we have triumphed today as Sen.Obama is declared the 44th President of the United States.

The Unspoken



Last Friday, October 31, 2008, I was supposed to go at his place because he volunteered to install and anti – virus software in my notebook. He not me set the time I was supposed to go there, it was at 7:00pm or 8:00pm.

I spent the day like an ordinary week day. I went to work and went home the usual time like it wasn’t All Saint’s Day tomorrow, when all else were having half of their day off for those who are going home in their provinces. I went to Dangwa after work to buy flowers for my Dad, Grandpa and Grandma since I am not going home. I couldn’t think of myself just spending two days there. It’ll just burn me out so as usual I’m going to just send those to Mom.

When I was home, I spent some spare time resting while watching “They Kiss Again” on tv. And then when it was done, I went to the bus terminal to send the flowers. Busted, they wouldn’t accept it because they wanted it to be placed on a box. I kept on insisting but they didn’t even budge. So busted, I went back and started looking for a box that can accommodate the largeness of the flowers. There wasn’t any that will fit until I found my large paper bag I got from the Hero Zone Convention in 2006. It fit but I still had to cut the ends of the flowers. And so there it was, finally at the hands of the people at the terminal ready to be sent to my Mom.

It was already 7:00pm and he hasn’t said anything to me through text. I decided that if he hasn’t texted me yet until 7:30 pm I will be eating out. I sent him a message telling him to text me when he gets to his place. I didn’t receive any decent reply. It was already 7:45pm and still has no reply. I have already finished my meal and it was now 8:30pm, I guess. I was watching ‘The Exorcism of Emily Rose” then on TV5 when I heard the stupid phone rang. I knew it, it must be him. I answered it and as usual I didn’t hear any answer from the other line. It was him.
Jov: Magsalita ka Kennedy!!
Kennedy: Laughs
Jov: Next time naman,kung hindi mo pala magagawa sabihin mo agad. Eh kung gawin ko kaya sayo yun.
Kennedy: Na-lowbatt kasi ako eh.
Jov: Eh di sana naki-text ka.
Kennedy: Hindi ko kabisado number mo eh,landline lang.
Jov: Mas importante ang cellphone.
Kennedy: Ginabi na kasi kami eh,kasi naghahabol na.
Jov: Yun nga eh,kung alam mo palang di ka makakauwi ng maaga. Panu na lang kung naghhihintay ako sa labas,eh di naghintay na ako dun ng matagal!
Kennedy: Alam ko naman na di ka naghihintay eh.
Jov: Eh di sana kung tinext mo na lang malamang tulog ka na ngayon.
Biglang iniba ang usapan. Nagtanong ng kung anu anu na movies na I haven’t heard of.
Kennedy: Punta ka na lang dito. Di pa ako kumakain eh.
Jov: Bakit pa ako pupunta eh the only purpose ay dahil lang dun.
Kennedy: Cge tawag na lang ulit ako.
Jov: Oh bat ka pa tatawag eh di kung magpahinga ka na lang.
Kennedy; Ok,ayoko ng makipag-argue.
Jov; Ako din!
Kennedy: Ok,ba-bye,good night!


In our 15 minute conversation, I never heard him say sorry. I mean, I was also the first one to urge him to talk about our supposed meet – up tonight. He could even manage a laugh. He is such an insensitive brat! Was I supposed to say to him, “hey maybe you should say sorry?” Doesn’t he use his head that it’s exactly the thing I’m pointing at that’s why I sound like that on the phone! Or he’s just a plain insensible dick. It’s not just today that something like this has happened. For the record, it is the second time around. The first one was still about that failed Harry Potter book series he promised in December. It still bugs me until now whenever I remember it. Again, today though it’s not a promise but he volunteered again to install anti – virus in my notebook. It wasn’t my idea; it was his so he should stand by his word. If he can’t for some reason then he should just explain his side and say sorry. Just this, just this but it feels so hard for him to do it. If he thinks this is just a petty thing, it’s not for me. Yeah, you may be freakin’ tired but there’s no excuse just say sorry. How hard is that?!


For the years that I’ve known him, I have never heard him say sorry for his faults to me. Never, not even once. I don’t know if there’s something wrong with the word SORRY that he feels he will choke when he say it. Or if there’s something wrong with him because it’s not included in his vocabulary. Maybe he just wasn’t the type of person who says the PATHETIC WORD SORRY. He just wasn’t a person who apologizes or resents his faults to other people. Or he thinks I’m not worthy enough for his once in a blue moon and most treasured SORRY.

I can’t convince myself even more that he’s ever serious with whatever that’s going on between us. I guess he’ll never have the guts to say what he really means. About what we really have and what I really am for him. What I know is that I’m sure of myself and what he is for me. But if he can’t even gather himself to say the stupid word SORRY in simple situations like this, I guess he’ll never have. If he can’t even say SORRY how could he even say those three words that are said too much. Maybe he’ll never have or never will until he learns to say SORRY.

Overage Thinking

Overage Thinking,does it sound familiar?Well it does,it's actually a play of Teddy Geiger's debut album entitled Underage Thinking.But I'm reversing it to "Overage Thinking" for the fact that I'm not underage anymore.

For the past few years,I am actually thinking overage.I'm thinking overage because at 22 years old and still not having a single history of a boyfriend is absolutely wrecking.Not even a single suitor in my whole 22 years is evident.How bad can this really get?!Twenty two is too young to get married but too old to have her first boyfriend just yet.You see,I'm not really the school campus heartthrob kind of girl when I was in school.I'm more of the nerd type of kid in school.Quiet,almost serious all the time,aloof etc.I was like that and still kind of like that until now.Maybe these were and still are the reasons why I'm honestly way past the time.The reasons why I'm thinking overage right now.

Sure,every kid have their own crushes and things like that.When they grow up,they go to highschool and have their first boyfriend;first kiss;first date;first sex and all that are firsts.They go to college and have their second,third and what countless boyfriends including flings and chatmates or textmates.Me,I didn't have any of these but ofcourse I wouldn't want to get engage in any kind of premarital sex when I was in highschool until now,alright. It's just that I didn't experience those other three firsts that are usually being experienced by girls in their highschools days. I was really a sheltered girl,partly I think because of my family and the way I was brought up.

Higschool come and go and so does college.Things like boyfriends or others like this didn't really happen to me then.Memorables ones were purely academics or with friends but never with romantic involvements.The fact of my having a crush with a classmate when I was in high school is not counted because it was just a crush. And that crush of mine,kept bugging me with his weird antics but it never translated to something romantic cause he got a girlfriend a year older than us when we were in our third year.

In college,it was weird cause I didn't have, not even one crush until I graduated.I still like that crush of mine in high school but we haven't seen each other since graduating high school and besides we weren't really close. He was studying then in MMSU in Batac, Ilocos Norte and that was all I know then.

My second year in college came,surprisingly that crush transferred here in Manila. And another surprise,he even enrolled in a school near mine.This was the time when we kinda started talking like friends. I think he didn't have a choice,cause I was the only one he knows who lives nearby then. So he started asking me favors and I started helping him and to keep in check I still like him. But still were not yet close then,I would rather say we were just friends on talking terms.We only get to see each other or talk to each other when he wanted my help and just that. So third year and fourth year came and nothing else happened.

Graduation came and I started working and he started reviewing for the board exam. We were totally lost in our own worlds.And October came and it's not a surprise that he passed the board.Apart from that,I was the the first one whom he broke the news.
Then November,he started working in Makati where I also worked then.Coincidentally or was it by choice,I think it's the latter. So he ended up working near mine.And we started eating lunch together,going home together,talking more often.That was it,a complete turnaround of events.

And this year came,another turnaround of events.He has changed,everything has changed.We weren't really like this before,but it's different now.The way we talk to each other has changed. We now talked often on the phone and he's saying things that's hard for me to imagine.We see each other now more frequent. Things have really changed.I don't know how to explain this or even describe it.Maybe some would call it M.U. but I really don't know myself what to call it.But again,I am still under the spell of overage thinking

Lights in Makati





Every 6:30pm,Ate Irene and I began to move our way home.We always take the underpass to cross from Salcedo St. to Ayala. It always strike me so pleasantly whenever I see these lights in Ayala Avenue. It never fails to amazed me everytime I see them. It's only here in Makati that I see these kinds of christmas lights. I don't see them anywhere not even here in Manila. I love those star shaped christmas lights that looked like they were skins of the trees. They really glow at night and I really like looking at them.

I think I'll have to remember these nights in Makati and those christmas lights always. It's because they were also the times when we used to go home together. We used to do this then,when he started working in Makati. Although,he bugs me most of the time cause he can't even wait for me. When I get there he's already at the front of the line of passengers waiting for the shuttle. He's not really a gentleman to be all honest about it.

I did have good times in Makati because of Ate Irene and others I have met while I was there. I had really startling moments with him and that this has started the new way we treat each other. And the christmas lights on those trees that makes me remember that there's light in every unexpected slump of our lives.However,I don't see myself getting back there anytime soon. But those lights,I will always love to see again.

Crush - David Archuleta

My Hazy Future





I got this vision, this very fuzzy vision about me and him. It's very fuzzy that I couldn't see my way out.

Ang Kunwa – kunwariang Bridal Shower

Bridal shower ang tawag sa party na ginagawa para sa isang bride to be. Pero sa kasong to wala naman talaga ikakasal. Nangyari ang kalokohang ito nung Sabado, October 18, 2008 sa unit ni Kennedy sa me Cristobal St.

Nung Friday kasi ng gabi eh nagkaroon ng inuman sa kanila dahil gra-graduate na si Fabio sa college. Kaya ang butihin at kapita-pitagan niyang bestfriend na si Kennedy ay nag-throw ng simple party para sa kaniya. Andun si Jacky ng time na yun at nakita niya ang kakapalan ng tatlo na magtanggal tanggal ng mga t-shirt nila. In short, hindi man lang sila nahiya kay Jacky na andun din. Siguro nakalimot na ang mga loko sa sobrang kalasingan.

Mabalik tayo sa Sabado,nagpunta kami dun nila Jacky, Salie, at Ivy parang karugtong lang ito nun Friday. Dahil sa puro sila lalake nun at nag-iisa lang si Jacky kaya ngayon mga girls naman daw. Kumain, tumawa,internet at dvd marathon lang ang pinaggagagawa namin dun.

Natuon ang pansin naming sa dumble niya. Totoo pala ang pinag-mamayabang niya sa akin na nag-dudumble nga siya. Eto ang mga sumunod na nangyari.
Jov: eh mukhang wala naman nagbago eh.
Kennedy: tignan mo ( sabay pakita ng biceps na wala naman talagang muscle ). Gusto mo bumitin ka pa eh.
(Bigla ko nasabi yung ginawa nilang kalokohan nung Friday.)

Jov: Totoo ba na nghubad hubad daw kayo kagabi?Hindi na kayo nahiya kay Jacky.
Kennedy: Gusto mo ata makita eh( parang ganito yun sinabi niya)
Jov: Hindi mo naman kaya eh kasi wala ka naman talaga mapapakita.
Kennedy: Hinahamon mo ba ako jov?! Cge!Pero dapat me isa din sa inyo magtanggal ng t-shirt.( Tawanan lang kaming lahat)
Jacky: Cge,labas muna kaming tatlo. Bridal shower to.
( Iniwan kami nun tatlo at lumabas nga talaga sila. Ayun nadyahe tuloy si mokong )
(Pagbalik nung tatlo,me hirit pa siya. )
Kennedy: Wag na lang yung taas, yung baba na lang yun naman ang asset ko eh.
(Akalain mo marunong na siya ng mga ganung kalokohang hirit ah!)
Kennedy: Gusto mo lang ata makita jov eh. Cge pwede mong hawakan.
( Masyado naman siyang feeling ah. Anu kala niya ba kagandahan ang katawan niya para gustuhin ko makita .)

At eto ang kunwari-kunwariang bridal shower na nangyari sa araw na yun. Hindi dahil sa ikakasal na ako. Panu naman ikakasal ang walang boyfriend. At kung magkakaroon man ng bridal shower ang kahit sinuman sa amin,siguro hindi naman si Kennedy ang kukunin nila. Hindi naman sa iniismol ko si Kennedy,siyempre alam naman lahat halos naming mgkaklase kung anu bang meron di ba. Natatawa lang ako sa mga hirit niya. Ngayon lang kasi nangyari ang ganun. Yung nagkakaroon na kami ng bonding time. Pero the thing is, a dare is still a dare and he lost.

October Quirk

October has given its name a new gist. First week of October 2007, when I bought my most expensive purchase yet in my whole 21 years of living. It was my very first cool hi-tech phone, a Sony Ericsson K550i. It was one of the latest handsets then. I was really intending to buy W200i but since it is phased out already, I then opted for K700i. But one agent at Semicon suggested that I should just buy K550i because it’s not joystick. So there, I got my first cool phone at less than Php10,000.

And today is October 23, 2008. It has been a week and 4 days since October 12 when bought this laptop at Gilmore which I’m using now to type this entry. It is an Asus 1000H, the newest unit from Asus Eee PC series. It is ranked No. 1 and most popular at http://asia.cnet.com/reviews/notebooks with an impressive rating of 8.8. Plus, this has been recommended to me by Kennedy. Well, thanks a lot to him cause I wouldn’t be able to buy this if not for him.

What makes this laptop extra special is because this is my most expensive purchase ever and he had a very special participation for making this possible for me. I couldn’t thank him more for this. He was very hands – on when we were still having talks about it until we have purchased it. He was there watching it being configured, he never left and told me take it away.

He also downloaded software’s that I needed: itunes,limewire,winamp etc. He was so patient in doing this, that it took me by surprise why so sudden he was giving me all this help. At the same time, these things has made this October out of ordinary. My first laptop and him, two of the most treasured pieces of my life. Things have never been this happy for me. I owe this all to him for making one of my imaginings probable. He sure has made it up to me that he has felt remorse about what has happened, when he wasn’t able to give me the Harry Potter collection he promised last December 20.07.

I told him on Tuesday night, October 21 that I appreciate all the efforts he has done. Even though it wasn’t really expected of him to do all those things for me. I am very thankful. I also told him that I’m not being dramatic; I’m just giving him a rightful response for his very unexpected efforts. And all he could muster was a “gudnyt “with a winking emoticon.


From now on, October will always be incomparable.

Ang Telepono Sa DQ

Ang telepono sa DQ ay ngri-ring lang sa pagtawag ng mga taong malapit sakin sa buhay college. Kadalasan ay si Elaine aka Doreena,Katrina aka Victoria at Anna aka Margarita ang nagiging dahilan kaya nagagamit ko ang telepono sa DQ.Pero simula nung first week of August 2008,mukhang nagbago na ang dahilan kaya ngri-ring ang telepono sa DQ. Hindi na madalas ang pag-uusap namin ng tres marias.

Wala kahit isa sa mga malalapit na kaibigan ko noong high school and nakakausap ko sa telepono ng DQ. Pero isang tao and pumilit na baguhin yun. Siya yung tao na sobra kong kinaiinisan nung high school. Hindi naman talaga kami close ng taong to kung tutuusin. Parang ang labas eh magkakilala lang kami ganun lang. Matagal tagal na rin kaming hindi naguusap ng taong to. Simula to nung umalis ako sa Makati at naiwan naman siya dun. Nagkataon kasi na naging magkalapit ang pinapasukan namin o baka sinadya niyang piliin yung malapit sakin.

Siguro dahil sa Makati days kaya nasasabi niya na close kami. Pagbalik ko dito ng January,hindi ko na siya kinakausap nun.Tutal anu naman ba ang bago dun eh hindi ko naman talaga siya masyadong tinetxt o anu pa man.

Pagdating ng August,me ngtxt sakin. Si ading Jackie na younger sister niya
jackie: Manang kumusta?asan ka na daw?
jov:andito pa rin sa don quijote.
jackie: ania kano ti landline mo manang?
jov: bakit?7120600
jackie: tumawag kano ni manong manang.

At dito nagsimula mag-iba ang silbi ng telepono sa DQ. Sa ngayon,wala ng ibang tumatawag sa akin kundi siya. Hindi ko rin alam kung anu ang motibo niya o dahilan kung bakit siya tumatawag. Pero oo nga naman hindi rin naman kasi ako nagtatanong eh.
Kaya ang telepono sa DQ ang naging instrumento para siguro paglapitin kami.Dahil kaya ako na mismo sana ang lalayo sa paningin niya. Siguro,hindi ko alam.

Telepono sa DQ,salamat.

First Gilmore Sunday

Sunday,October 12,2008 is a very fateful day to me.It marked another part of my life history. It all started when I told him about my plans to buy myself a notebook.I think, after some thinking he decided to give me a hand. Which to me is very surprising considering that we are not just talking about small amounts here.Well,he could have just said that he'd accompany me to buy since he's the one who knows a lot about computers. It felt like I was knocked off my seat when he voluntarily obliged that I could use his credit card so that I could buy a better bargain. I only had 20k cash and 5k of it was from my mother which I will be paying installment. Automatically, I asked why so sudden he's offering this really big help to me. He said that he needs cash to buy a computer or two I guess for his sister,Ate Jaliza because the money will be arriving later than expected. But you see,If I was him I wouldn't even think about letting somebody use my credit card. If we were brothers,sisters,very close cousins,parents etc that is tolerable but we're not. We just happen to be friends.

My college friend Anna who knows almost everything about me and him gave me a very good discussion over the phone about this. She said,even though he needed the cash, maybe he also made this to appear as an alibi so he could lend me his credit card. I was thinking at the back of my head that she was right. I even asked him,would he do the same thing to anyone else of our friends and he said no because to him,I'm special. It's so nice to hear him say these kind of words. But I don't really know if he meant everything he's said.

On Saturday,October 11,we both have agreed to meet up at my place at 9am. The next day,I woke up at 9am so I'm practically late. So we ended up meeting up at 10am. If I had woken up early and we took off at 9am,he might have seen my second older brother. I don't know what should have happened if my brother saw us. You see,my brother isn't really aware of him going to our house or of any guy visiting me. So I'm quite sure he's going to ask me or us something. Luckily, he didn't see us cause he left earlier.

So we walked together and took a jeep to Legarda. To my dismay,I paid our fare for the jeep. I was thinking,since it's just cheap amount then I'll let him pass this time. However,when we reached LRT Legarda station,he asked me to pay for his fare as well. ( Kuripot talaga!) So we boarded the LRT and sat while talking about stuffs like my brother Jorge and Ate Jean asking him during Ate Jaliza's wedding about me.

After a few minutes,we are already in Gilmore.His bestfriend who's also my friend was already there.Fast forward, we went to a store at the second floor of a building. There's this open alley so I went out of the store and went there. After a few minutes, he came to talk to me. And he suddenly took my cap off and tried it on him. Then we went down and continue to look for a good buy. Almost every store allows only straight payment. But then finally,we found one which allows installment.
I was really touched that when they were configuring the laptop,he never left at the receiving counter and continued to look after it while I was there sitting.

Fast forward,we ended up going home through a taxi. Those boxes were really big,so me and him ended up sitting together sandwich at the front seat. It was really uncomfortable for me. You see,it was the first time that we ever had that really close contact with each other. His shoulders was brushing against mine. It really was uncomfy but so sweet. To my shock, he suddenly touched my right knee. I'm not really used to this kind of feeling,it sends chills to my body specially because I like or love him for that matter.

This day was also the first day I have ever stepped on his unit. And anothet first is that I ate lunch there with them. So many firsts have happened this day. I couldn't even explain the feeling. I don't know if I could ever get myself to call this thing between us as "closeness" or maybe something more than that. He's saying a lot of things that you know so sweet to hear but I don't know If I should take it seriously. I don't know what's on his mind and what is this thing between us. This all started when he began calling me first week of August. He started saying sweet nothings and ridiculously sweet words. We usually talked over the phone two or three times a week until now. It's really hard for me to expect or even asked him what all of this means. But if there's one thing constant,that is what and how I feel for him.

Nights in Rodanthe 2008
based on Nicholas Sparks novel of the same title
Starring Richard Gere and Diane Lane

I love them both ever since Unfaithful.

The Notebook 2007
based from Nicholas Sparks novel of the same title

Starring Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams

I really love this,especially because of Ryan Gosling.

A Walk to Remember 2006
based from Nicholas Sparks novel of the same title

Starring mandy Moore and Shane West

Lee DOng Wook and Lee Da Hae

ATONEMENT

I SOOOOO LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE JAMES MCAVOY!!!!

Strawberry on the Shortcake MV
Starring Takizawa Hideaki and Fukuda Kyoko


Takky!!!!! He's my new crush!!! SO hott!!
Very good story, i really love it!

I Shott the Sheriff
Jason Castro

Rock and Roll Walk of Fame Songs

I like this and I agree with Paula, that he has connected more with the audience now than any of his performances. And that he's unique and that his artistry shines through.

September Morn
Jason Castro

Song original by Neil Diamond

Forever in Blue Jeans
Jason Castro

Neil Diamond original

Memory
Jason Castro

( Songs from Andrew Lloyd Webber)

I liked his version so much. You're still the best.

I Don't Wanna Cry
Jason Castro
original by Mariah Carey

" I really love this performance! This is one of his best! I hope he gets to the top3,atleast he's 3rd place. I will be happy enough for him. For his fans, let's pray for him. SUrely, he will get a recording deal. He deserved it and everything he has.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow
Jason Castro
American Idol '08 Top 8

" You are back. This is the hottest performance. " Randy
" You have the most definitive sound. You did a great job. " Paula
" The third time is fantastic. " Simon

Travelin' Through
By: Dolly Parton
Version by Jason Castro
American Idol '08 Top 9

Fragile original by Sting
Jason Castro version
American Idol '08 Top 10

Review: Jason Castro's Performance as One of American Idol's Top 8, April 8

By Celeste Ray, published Apr 08, 2008
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Jason Castro's performance as one of the top eight on American Idol season seven proved that he is worthy of being in the top eight. If there was any doubt that he was serious about being a competitor on American Idol, he crushed those doubts with this stellar performance.

This week's theme was inspirational songs, and Jason Castro very appropriately chose Israel Kamakawiwo Ole's version of Somewhere Over the Rainbow. This was a brilliant song choice for Jason. This version of the song has a laid back, island feel to it, and I could see Jason sitting under a cabana on the beach, performing this song. The song also fits the theme well - as Jason said in his interview, changing the world is what this week is all about. Somewhere Over the Rainbow is the essence of this sentiment. Our country is in a bit of a crisis at the moment...but Somewhere Over The Rainbow we'll see better times.

This isn't to say that this song choice didn't do anything for Jason. He stayed within his niche, but still branched out, making use of the ukulele instead of the guitar, showing that he is a well-rounded artist. Vocally, he performed quite well this week. He came across as passionate about the song, very sincere, and broke into a very nice, natural sounding falsetto.

The judges seemed to agree that this was a strong performance. Randy said that Jason Castro is back this week, and that his performance was the "hottest" of the night. I definitely second that opinion. Simon furthered the sentiment by saying that it was his third time hearing this version of the song, and thought it was fantastic.

If Jason had anything to worry about in previous weeks, I think he can rest easy now. He proved himself a worthy competitor tonight and I expect to see him stick around for weeks to come.

Sano Izumi and Ashiya Mizuki
Hana Kimi Japan
I really love Shun here!
They look cute together!

I love Rui!!!

Crows Zero
starring Shun Oguri

This is No. 1 at the box office! Wow, I wanna watch this. He look so so so HOT here!

Hana Yori Dango I and II OST
I love HYD so much especially Oguri Shun!!!

A♥N♥N Cut 22.02.07 M@â?¼TsUjUn ♥ Shun♥
Uploaded by hhhhh1

Shun Oguri's Radio Show " All Night Nippon "
with guest Jun Matsumoto and Mao Inoue ( over the phone )

Ang kulit nila!nakakatawa un conversation nun 2 gwaping!

IF I FELL
JASON CASTRO
ORIGINAL BY JOHN LENNON AND PAUL MCCARTNEY

I honestly agree with Paula,he did a great interpretation of the song. He did some new tricks to make it extra special.

But Simon may have a point, as he said he's picking safe songs. But they should really give him credits for being creative. Since being a good singer is not about screaming,loud fast songs it's about interpretation.

I STILL LOVE JASON! TO HIS MANY FANS,SUPPORT HIM ALL THE WAY.

Love So Sweet - Arashi
Han Yori Dango 2 OST

Flavor of Life - Utada Hikaru
Hana Yori Dabgo 2 OST

Planetarium bu Otsuka Ai
Hana Yori Dango 2 OST

Hallelujah
by: Jason Castro ( Jeff Buckley original )

"It was absolutely brilliant! Arguably,my favorite of the performances for the whole night. Definitely, your strongest so far. I'm very happy. You're getting better,and better and better!

"Of the guys,you're great,great,amazing.And what I like about you is that you're unique and you're definitely recognizable of your technique."

"Great degree of difficulty but you did a great job. SHowing a different side of you without the guitar. "


GO JASON!

ONE OF THE BEST PERFORMANCES!

Santeria
Jason Castro version

Crazy
Jason Castro

Jason Castro
I Just Wanna Be Your Everything
American Idol '08
Top 10 Guys

I love this guy so much. I love his voice and everything about him! So humble and talented. Please vote for him!

Jason Castro
Daydream
American Idol '08
Top 12 Guys

One of the top 2 performances! Way to go Jason! Keep voting for him!

So Close
by: Jon McLaughlin
Enchanted OST


You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

If I was the one
by: Ruff Endz



ohhh,
I see the way he treats you,
I feel the tears you cried,
And it makes me sad,
and it makes me mad,
There's nothing I can do baby.
Cause your lover is my best friend,
And I guess that's where the story ends.
So I've gotta try, to keep it inside.
You will never be, never be mine but,

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.

If I could have just one wish,
I'd wish that you were mine,
I would hold you near,
Kiss away those tears.
I'd be so good to you baby.
You're the one I want next to me,
But I guess that's just not meant to be.
He's there in your life,
And he's sharing your nights,
It'll never be, never be right.

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.

Yeah, baby.
I wanna reach out and view beside me,
Right here beside me, babe.
Take you in my arms right there now,
Scream 'I love you' right out loud.
Some day I pray, that I'll find the strength,
To turn to you and say,

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.

If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.

If I was the one, if I was the one,
In your life.

Rui: If I was the one


Sweet song!!!Rui is a lot better still.

Rui Hanazawa and Makino Tsukushi in Hana Yori Dango
Song: Everyday

I still prefer Rui,very very much.

Reasonable Reasons

Maybe some would say that I have dismissed some things that could have been good. But I do have my own reasonable reasons. It was a blessing, I got the post and its something that I might really enjoy doing. But unknown to me was that there is something in that kind of work that I have thought to be just okay for me but it's not. It's a work that requires me to write for a mini magazine and collect artciles for contributors and trainings as well which I also did before. So it's really not that new to me other than the fact that its a bigger responsibility. At first, I actually didn't know that they were related into funeral services and death plans.I just know that they're into life plans. But later on I found out and I dismissed the thought that it might be awkward. But I was absolutely shocked to see the magazines showing things related to death and it will always be a part of the work that I will be doing to write about those. This I thought was something I wouldn't want to write about because I myself doesn't want to talk about it or anything related to it. And this is a fact I cannot dismiss. It would have been a great job and I honestly think they were good people there. But I still think that it happened because it's already written or planned to happen. We don't just do things and make decisions,it's also of God's will. So I know that God wouldn't have let me decide to leave if he knows it was the right place for me.

Then, again a blessing I was still accepted in the previous one that accepted me. I made up my mind that I could wake up that early and that it's okay. But maybe the mistake was it wasn't cleared to me what actually my work would be. I thought it's more on marketing,you know promotions and everything. But I was so wrong,it was more on sales which I really wouldn't want to be involved. It is something I deeply don't want to be doing. I'd have to prepare lots of contacts which blurred up my mind. It was so many and when you screw up you're dead!I couldn't even follow how she do it. So I gave it up but still I am very thankful to her cause she understood my reasons.

SO now, I'm like this again. Hoping and praying to God to give me the job,please cause I really need it and I really want it. And this is to my Mom,who still understands me despite what I did. I want to this not just for me but for her and for the people who understood what I meant. I want to prove to her,her who made me feel the first of my demise that she was dead wrong at judging me. So please GOD,I am begging you to please guide to the right place and I think it is the right one for me. And I'm ready to make sacrifices and you know that I really work hard. It's just my only wish, so please I hope you could hear me. But still I'm thankful for YOU always but please grant my wish.

In manilafuturesalon@ yahoogroups. com, Lei Kalina
wrote:
>
> Hahahha ... the report says: "Men aren't more clever or
smarter. But since they think they are, they are more confident about
their abilities. These self-beliefs, however, may be highly adaptive.
Who gets a job? A bright woman who doesn't think she's smart, or a
not-so-bright man who believes he's capable of anything? Arrogance
and hubris are not attractive qualities, but confident, self-belief
may be."
>
> My take on this: "self-perfection" is looking within, and we
have all the qualities such as intelligence, wisdom, all-around
goodness ( minus the environment factors like peer factor, media
persuasion , etc) . Being smart, being wise or intelligent --- I
agree, depends much on your self-image and self-belief. Suceeding
in life and setting aside life's "hassles" -- problems at work and
lovelife, among other things --- depends much on how you handle it,
and your self-belief. If you think you're smart, whether you're
male or female, and you work on it to become smarter and wiser in
life and among other things .... that's the thing.

MrOneHundred Percent wrote:
>
> Sorry guys... just got this bit from NEwsweek.com
>
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>
> PSYCHOLOGY
> He's Not as Smart as He Thinks A British researcher reports
that the male ego is often larger than his actual IQ. But you might
be surprised by what women think of men's intellect.
>
>
>
> Peter M. Fisher / Corbis
>
> By Joan Raymond | Newsweek Web Exclusive
> Jan 23, 2008 | Updated: 5:25 p.m. ET Jan 23, 2008
>
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>
>
> Are men smarter than women? No. But they sure think they are. An
analysis of some 30 studies by British researcher Adrian Furnham, a
professor of psychology at University College London, shows that men
and women are fairly equal overall in terms of IQ. But women, it
seems, underestimate their own candlepower (and that of women in
general), while men overestimate theirs. Furnham talks to NEWSWEEK's
Joan Raymond about his findings and why perceived IQ matters.
Excerpts:
>
> NEWSWEEK: Many studies show that men score slightly higher in IQ
tests. Is this significant?
>
> Adrian Furnham: Universally, men tend to score higher on certain
specialized skills, such as spatial awareness. In the real world,
that means they might be better at reading maps or navigating. Women
score higher in terms of language development and emotional
intelligence. But most experts agree there is no real, important
overall difference when it comes to gender and intelligence.
>
> But women think they aren't as smart as men?
> That's the conundrum. What I study is "perceived intelligence, "
essentially how smart people think they are. I analyzed 30
international studies, and what I found was that women, across the
world, tend to underplay their intelligence, while men overstate it.
>
>
>
> So do most men think they're Albert Einstein?
>
> There certainly is a greater male ego. It's what we call the male
hubris and female humility effect. Men are more confident about their
IQ. These studies show that on average, women underestimate their IQ
scores by about five points while men overestimate their own IQs.
Since these studies were international in scope, the results were
essentially the same whether women were from Argentina, America,
Britain, Japan or Zimbabwe. Another factor affecting perception may
be distribution of IQ ... Although [men and women] are on average the
same, the people at the very top and the very bottom of the IQ bell
curve are more likely to be men. That is a pattern that we see in the
university setting, with men either being at the very top of the
class or at the bottom.
>
> Do women tend to think that men are smarter than they are?
>
> Surprisingly, [both] men and women perceive men being smarter
across generations. Both sexes believe that their fathers are smarter
than their mothers and grandfathers are more intelligent than their
grandmothers.
>
> What about the kids?
>
> If there are children, [both] men and women think their sons are
brighter than their daughters.
>
>
> Did the data surprise you?
>
> Absolutely. And it is worrying in the sense that it may mean
parents send inappropriate or misleading messages to their children
about their abilities. It is also surprising since school results, at
least in Great Britain, indicate quite clearly that girls are doing
better than boys in nearly all subjects. What was interesting was
that some groups of people, both men and women, got it so wrong. Men
with average to below-average intelligence think that they are quite
clever. And very smart women think their intelligence is low.
>
> Does any of this matter in the real world?
>
> Men aren't more clever or smarter. But since they think they are,
they are more confident about their abilities. These self-beliefs,
however, may be highly adaptive. Who gets a job? A bright woman who
doesn't think she's smart, or a not-so-bright man who believes he's
capable of anything? Arrogance and hubris are not attractive
qualities, but confident, self-belief may be. Certainly,
underestimating abilities might hurt you. There's a good quote from
one of your countrymen, Henry Ford. He says: "Whether you believe you
can do a thing or not, you are right." And that is what is
troublesome. Beliefs may be more important than actual ability in
certain settings.
>
> So women have a self-esteem problem?
>
> I'm not advocating for self-esteem training and therapy. I think
that many of the self-help gurus argue incorrectly that improved self-
esteem increases performance. Helping people to perform better
increases their self esteem. Giving a kind of carte blanche to self-
esteem isn't a good idea in my mind. Rather, I think it should be
that increased performance and feedback on the causes of that
performance, ability or effort raises self-esteem. As I said, in
primary and secondary schools, girls are outperforming boys. And
where appropriate, their self-beliefs, hopefully, are increasing.
>
>
> Do you get a lot of flack for this kind of gender research?
> I study perceived intelligence. I don't research whether gender
differences in intelligence are innate. That always sparks
controversy. But anytime you talk about intelligence and gender,
people will have strong feelings about it. Look what happened to
[Larry] Summers of Harvard [the former president of the university
was lambasted for suggesting that women are underrepresented in the
sciences at least partly due to inherent differences in intellectual
ability between the sexes]. I just let the data speak for itself.
Nonetheless, sometimes I think you have to be stupid, brave or just
plain naive to work in this area.
>
> © 2008 Newsweek, Inc.

Penelope starring James McAvoy and Christina Ricci

Atonement,most tearjerker and romantic scene ever

Wanted starring James McAvoy,Angelina Jolie and Morgan Freeman

Last King of Scotland starring James McAvoy and Forest Whitaker

Starter for Ten starring James McAvoy

Atonement starring James McAvoy and Keira Knightley

Becoming Jane starring James McAvoy and Anne Hathaway

My Father starring Daniel Henney

"Do You Know? (The Ping Pong Song)"

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

How can I love you [x4]

If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next thing life could be

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x7]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
(Do you know how it feels)
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

"Somebody's Me"

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me [5x]

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